我是坏小孩

已经不记得最后一次看到妈妈哭是什么时候，今天我这个不肖女竟然把妈妈气的泪花梨雨。我应该怎么办呢？明早起床她还会生气么？她心里是不是很难受？经常和男朋友吵架已经视为家常便饭，可是和妈妈吵架好像懂事以来就没有这样子的歌仔唱，怎么办呢？这个晚生心里真的很不安。。

四个小时前：
刚刚又和男朋友吵架，心情超级不爽，甚至想这辈子都不想再见到这个烂人。回到家里，我紧急收起莫大的怨气，好好的帮哥哥修理电脑，拿着衣服想要洗澡出去和朋友喝茶。妈妈不经意的说前几天打扫不小心打乱我床底下的拼图，天啊，我辛辛苦苦拼了好几月的拼图！！！我立马冲进房间拉出大卡片折起的拼图，一个、两个、三个。。差不多掉了十多个小片出来。

我小心翼翼的翻过另外一面，逐个逐个放回原位，一个、两个、三个。。妈妈还在一旁自言自语说她不知道原来我的拼图还没有镶起，竟然那么脆弱，亲手一拉，就拉出那么多个小片片。我摆完最后一个小块发现少了角落的一小块，钻进床底看，没有，厨底，也没有，问佣人打扫有没有看到，妈妈说打翻拼图已经好几天前的事了，没有看到有其他粹片。

我当场差点气昏了，为什么打翻当天不直接告诉我？为什么我的床底你要打翻？为什么一定要我镶起我的拼图？这个拼图已经埋藏在我的床底半年有多，为什么从来相安无事，你要强硬拉出来清理？我没好气的跑进浴室洗澡。三秒钟以内我已经知道自己语气太重，妈妈可能受了委屈，快快洗完澡想认错和妈妈道歉，怎么知道她竟然哭了。

我拉着妈妈的手向她道歉，说我刚才怒火冲天所以乱发脾气，向她解释我生气的不是她，只是拼图差了一片等于前工尽费所以生气，请她原谅我。拼图没了可以在买，妈妈生气不可以原谅，那我就真的内疚死了。她口了说了没事没事，可是眼泪还是如水喉般不断下流，搞的我真的不知所措，都不知道她是不是接收我的道歉，都不知道她会记在心里多久。

四个小时后：
回到家里妈妈已经睡着，我真的不知道如何是好。我相信自己完全有妈妈的遗传，我绝对不会轻易原谅曾经伤害我的人。唉。。。如果我是小孩，妈妈可能会以年少无知的借口来原谅我，我都那么大，还会做出这种不分轻重的事情，我也找不到什么借口原谅自己。上帝，救救我啊。教我如何和妈妈冰释前隙，教我如何好好爱护她，像温室里的小花好好保护她。

Thank you Lord

Thank you Lord
For you are my refuge and strength
And ever present help in trouble

It is you Lord
That helps me sort things out
To see what is right from wrong

It is you Lord
That gives me courage to speak out
To solve issues I found helpless

Thank you Lord
For you are faithful and just
And forgives me from my sins

It is you Lord
That helps me to stand up
To walk out of the fear of the dark

It is you Lord
That gives me wisdom to judge
To have your ways in my life

Thank you Lord
For words cannot describe
How great you are

How to get your man listen to you

I do not know about you, but I’ve been taught that men and women think, speak and response differently since young. My brother bought me the book “Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus” when I was eighteen, although I didn’t quite understand it, I am subscribed to the idea that even our brains are wired differently.

Tzeh and I argued about this issue many times before, he doesn’t understand why I cannot speak up when I am angry, I do not understand why he can walk away when I am angry. I’ve been trying to tell him that I am not a man; hence I do not behave in accordance to his logical mind. So I decided to do a search online to come out with some facts and statistics to support my argument.

I was happy that I found an article entitled “Men and Women are Hard Wired Differently and respond differently”. It reads something like this ‘We mistakenly assume that if our partners love us they will react and behave in [the way] we react and behave when we love someone.’ Of course I myself fall into the same trap but I was trying to make him understand that I am not a man!!!

Then I continue to search and I found another article “How to Communicate Effectively with Husbands” and I laughed when I saw “Women talk too much and men don’t listen enough. This is an age-old problem that seems to have no real solutions” This is never a problem for me because Tzeh is the one doing all the talking and I am the one waiting for the conclusion while he dwell on and on with the details. I teased him and asked “Did you not learn summary in school before?”

In the midst of all this, I feel pathetic for myself that why on earth do I have to try to understand man? Has he ever made the same efforts try to understand me as well? The more in understand him, the more I gave in to make him feel better, but I also wish one day that he come to me and says “ Today I learn that women are like this like that, I understand now why you do this and that, and I will try to be this and that.. ”Dream on girl, dream on...

Anyway, criticism and sarcasms do not help man to listen, so here are some tips for the women to talk in ways that will get their men to listen (see, women are always too caring and understanding to burden ourselves to learn how to speak in the way man would listen)

http://marital-communication.suite101.com/article.cfm/how_to_communicate_effectively_with_husbands

我的家庭

相信大家在小学的时候都写过这个作文，我的爸爸是XXX，今年XX岁，我的妈妈XXX，今年XX岁，我的爸爸是厨师，我的妈妈是家庭主妇，我们一家人很开心。。很久都没有好好想起我的家，也很久没有好好了解我的家，我的家和十岁写作文的时候差别有多大？我不知道，也没有仔细去想。

爸爸妈妈怎么认识？我不知道，好像以前是邻居，一见钟情么？我不知道。我们属于那个爸爸妈妈高高在上，经常严肃的面孔，小孩不得随便发言的年代的小孩，对父母的爱情完全没有了解。甚至我为什么在哥哥姐姐们都长大成人的时候才出生？是意外？是苦闷？还是什么？妈妈应酬一句“我不知道”就完事了。为什么我从小就不吃青菜，为什么爸妈没有半哄带骗逼我吃菜？妈妈也潇洒的回答“我不知道”可能就是这种十问九不知的态度完全灭绝了我的求知欲。

现在想起来，我对家里的事情真的可以以一知半解来形容，爸爸妈妈喜欢吃什么，喜欢什么颜色，什么事情让他们开心，什么事情令他们生气，我真的从来没有想过。我们就好像生活在封建社会，什么都不准问，不准提的年代。认真想想如果我真的不耻下问，我估计他们还是会回答的，只不过他们同时也会担心我的脑袋是不是出了问题。

刚才和朋友讨论怎么可以对家人好一点，想了半天都找不到好点子。 他们不喜欢逛街，不喜欢旅游，不喜欢看电影，甚至不喜欢在外边吃饭，一辈子忙忙碌碌也没有想到怎么好好对待自己。甚至现在小孩都不再是小孩的时候，还要替小孩操心他们的小孩（孙子啦）。除了每个月给微不足道的家用，有时候在他们出去吃夜宵，我真不知道自己还能够做什么。突然间觉得当我的爸爸妈妈好可怜，竟然有我这个不肖女，不知道如何关怀他们，敬爱他们。

经常告诉自己对他们态度要好一点，只是每天下班回来，拖着疲惫的身子，我只想好好一个人呆在房间，上上网，看看书，不想和任何人说话。 好几次妈妈特地走进来我的房间，看我在做什么，很想和我打开话题，我却冷冷谈谈。 最过分的是，我不喜欢任何人躺在我的床上，枕头上，被单上，我看到会有一股冲动赶她出去（洁癖啦， 请多多包涵）

所以这个周末我决定好好呆在家里，什么都不做，就让爸爸妈妈把我看个够，看个饱，这样他们应该也会开心吧？本来打算带他们逛街，他们嫌太远太累，看电影？太冷太闷，吃饭？好呀，全家大小亲朋戚友都叫过来l。。唉，随便吧，只要你们开心就好。

澳门 – 好吃的旅程

以前来澳门都去人人皆知的“小飞象”吃葡国菜，以为吃过“小飞象”就等于来过澳门，尝过本地菜。直到现在我才真正体会到什么是澳门地道小吃，道道好吃，在这里我要认真记载，明年可以再去吃，呵呵。。

恒友鱼蛋
地址： 澳门大堂街(Sasa旁面的小巷，卢家大屋对面)
这个鱼蛋档最出名的就是他们的“鱼包蛋”， 什么叫鱼包蛋呢？就是鱼蛋里包着鱼子（鱼卵），在其他地方都没有看过。QQ的丸子，咬开以后中间的鱼子就顺着甜甜的微量汁水流淌到舌上，有着轻微的鱼子腥味，一口一个，满足的不得了。

这里的鱼蛋种类超级多，龙虾丸、芝心丸、蟹子鱼蛋、海胆鱼蛋、鱼豆腐等， 乱七八糟我们都搞不清楚啥是啥，反正随便选了一堆，淋上地道的咖喱汁，拿着小碗坐在外面的石凳吃，下午六点钟，这里的天色已经完全变黑，迎面冷风微微吹来，挺有feel的。

阿伯麦芽糖饼
地址： 大三巴某条街(Manning/Guardian同排)
没有写这个日志以前都不知道原来麦芽糖饼是一种怀旧小食，我一直都很庆幸自己可以在澳门竟然可以碰到那么好吃的东西。在吉隆坡食麦芽糖是从小的欢乐，可是热腾腾的麦芽糖夹在两块梳打饼的感觉来得完全不一样，这种甜的滋味真的是甜到你的心坎里。。

尤其看到年轻小伙都在排队，等着七、八十岁的阿伯坐在小小的推车仔，用他颤抖的双手，慢动作的从大缸里卷起麦芽糖，熟练的夹在两块梳打饼中间。我们都在猜想这个伯伯应该不是为了三餐养活孩子而在辛劳，他应该是为了大众人民的味蕾而继续开档，让这个传统小吃一直流传下去。这么简单易造的小吃，给我幸福无边的满足。

荣记豆腐面
地址：澳门果栏街47号地下（大三巴附近小巷）
这个豆腐面是在某个女孩的日志上看到的，由于最后一天无所事事，无聊到极，所以就上网搜查还有什么地道的小吃可以尝尝，反正澳门除了吃，就没有什么好做了。的士司机载我到这里的小巷，一家店都还没有开（都已经快十一点了），幸好这家店已经开门了。

那天天气变得更冷了，走在店里头，看到很多旧照片，说着创办人怎么从大陆来澳，做卖豆腐的街头小贩，到现在小小的店铺。他们的豆腐面就只有豆腐和面条，不是一般的清汤，而是貌似蚝油的茨汁，味道很独特，豆腐很香滑。我钟意！

大利猪扒包
地址：凼仔巴波沙前地18号（官也街附近）
到澳门，一定要吃猪扒包，而且一定要吃大利猪扒包，这个估计大家都懂，不用我多说。值得一题的是，现在他们推出新的猪扒餐包和波罗猪扒包，两个我们都嚐试过。餐包的肉做的比较干，吃起来没有什么味道，波罗包面包皮做的和Roti Boy有同工异曲之味道，只是他们用的不是咖啡粉，而是波罗粉？不知道，反正就甜甜脆脆，好吃。其实我喜欢面包比猪扒更多一些。

当然如果你第一次来，还是强烈推荐他们的金牌猪扒包，猪扒包每天3点钟出炉，周一到周五下午卖500个，周六日卖800个，而且是要自己在厨房排队。猪扒包的包是烤的，猪扒用秘制酱汁腌过，十分入味，并且不是很干，一口咬下去，鲜香的肉汁、嫩滑的猪扒和有嚼头的包，没有吃过，会终生后悔。。

内港餐厅
地址：澳门河边新街259号B地下和阁楼
没有来过内港餐厅以前，我都不知道原来葡国菜是多么的好滋味，亲爱的观众朋友，如果有人要带你去吃“小飞象”葡国菜，请一定要坚决的回拒，因为你吃完以后都不知道葡国菜到底有多香有多甜。内港餐厅真的是我唸唸难忘的澳门美食啊，。。

海鲜面包汤－ 面包碗里盛着虾，蟹肉煲成的海鲜忌廉汤，味道香又滑，好吃
白酒炒岘－本店招牌菜，葡萄牙上等白酒把蚬肉的鲜甜美味完全激发出来，好吃
非洲鸡－ 不知道为什么叫非洲鸡，反正味道浓烈的酱汁，每口都散发着洋蔥味，好吃
砵酒燴牛尾 －砵酒汁的甜味夾雜牛尾的脂肪油份帶出甜香的感覺， 好吃
馬介休－著名的葡国料理，其实就是盐腌鳕鱼，个人觉得味道一般般，但是可以尝尝。

葡萄牙蛋挞
地址：威尼斯人酒店
不知道为什么大家都觉得酒店里的葡挞做的比外边咀香和钜记还要好吃，可能这里的鸡蛋味道比较香浓，口感比较好。有机会要试试（应该没有外卖，我们是在酒店内晚宴吃的）

小飞象
地址: 澳门凼仔地堡街喜来登广场地下A铺及一楼
旅游团必吃的餐馆，所以菜色很一般，非常大众化的口味，根本吃不出来有什么葡国特色，我就是在这里吃了两年才发觉原来自己被骗了，好生气。当然这家店规模很大，套餐很好点，地方很好找，附近都是买手信的店，所以生意特别好，人流特别多。

木糠布甸
传统的葡萄牙甜品，由牛奶，鲜忌廉，饼干碎做成，入口香滑可口，回味无穷。在澳门随处可见，我只在小飞象吃过两次，也不知道什么评述好吃还是不好吃，反正就是要尝尝。

短短的几天，只能吃这么一些，其他的只能等到明年了。

1、黄枝记，澳门议事亭前地17号，招牌虾子捞面
2、义顺双皮奶，澳门议事亭红楼1号，双皮奶
3、潘榮記，澳门议事亭前地近仁慈堂，專賣金錢餅
4、明記士多，營地大街， 碟仔糕
5、洪馨店，營地大街，马来西亚进口的椰子
6、诚昌的水蟹粥，去年吃过，一般般

澳门 – 倒霉的启程

不知道为什么这次来到澳门感觉竟然如此差劲，从吉隆坡出发到现在回吉隆坡的路上，好像很多事情都不顺心。怎么说？上周过来的时候因为机票非常紧张，我不想飞香港再坐船去澳门，所以选择提早一天到达澳门，结果出发前每天都加班到很晚，为了补偿周五一个工作日浪费在飞机上。

本来打算提前到还可以好好休息一天在干活，结果刚到吉隆坡国际机场就发现航班延了一个小时，害我七早八早赶到机场扑了个空。在飞机场看了几集电视剧，上了飞机继续看，下了飞机到达目的地感觉还是挺开心的，因为从来没有试过可以从机场步行到酒店。

怎么知道到了前台负责人说公司没有预定到我的房间，而他们酒店当天所有房间都爆满。我打电话给会务负责人她说可以办，没问题；酒店又说没有办法办，有问题，觉果折腾了半天，终于把我安排在某个女生房间，第二天才安排新房间给我。。

刚下飞机，第一件事就想要查看邮件，看看有什么紧急的事情要处理，结果搞了半天没有办法接收任何公司邮箱的邮件，其他同事都有外网查收邮件的功能，就只有我没有办法开通这个功能，上次提交过申请，我的主管还冷冷的拒绝我的申请，另外加上备注“没有这个必要”。

好啦，现在什么活也不用干了，在这个关键时刻，我身为所有工作部门的总接口，没有办法处理邮件，所有接待信息都堵在我这个环节，搞的我什么心情都没有。结果我在澳门第一天就只有不断的看电视剧，那里都不想去。

下午室友饿着肚子让我带她出去吃饭，结果我点了一份全世界最难吃的鸭腿饭，这个鸭腿根本就是完完全全浸泡在盐巴三天三夜煮出来的感觉！在五星级酒店的美食广场吃了那么贵一个晚餐，真的又气氛又失望（没有办法这是离我们酒店最近最方便的地方吃饭了）回到酒店发觉我把房卡给弄丢了，怎么那么倒霉的呢。。

第二天早上睡倒什么钟点我也不记得，反正起床也不知道要干啥（澳门我已经来过两次，基本上该看的都看了，该吃的也吃了，这么叮小一个地方还有什么好逛）室友又吵着说不想回去昨天那地方吃饭，想出去看看有什么好吃的，我们两就坐上小巴去官也街打算吃澳门最出名的“猪扒包”。

在巴士上还有一个好心的妇人叫我们到站以后怎么走，她说下了车往回走就会看到一条小巷，那就是官也街。（我写到这里已经很累了，想到后面还有很多倒霉事没有写，好想哭）偏偏不懂广东话的室友说她看到下站以后过马路的小巷还想有很多食店，让我们往另外一个方向走，好啦美食街找不到，找到地产街，你要买楼么？

随便找了一个茶餐厅吃了午饭，等了半个小时才等到小巴，上了小巴以后，看错站下车，觉果饶了一大圈，到了另外一站，眼巴巴看着巴士刚开走，又等了另外一个小时，结果这顿午饭吃了大概3个小时吧。。

终于酒店给我安排了另外一个房间，换了另外一个室友，霉气好像没有打算离开我。想要煮水冲咖啡，那个烧水器就把一半的水都煮开了还不会自动关机。 想要冲个凉，洗手间花洒竟然不能操作，把服务员找来他竟然毫不废力气就打开了，和他投诉烧水器不能用，他站在那里看着它煮好自动跳起。。唉，好像我动过的东西都会坏似的。

Today I made a discovery

I’ve been feeling some bitterness on my throat since last week, I was trying to search for the cause of this irritating sense up and down, let and right. At first I thought it was the new water bottle that I started to use, so I changed to my bottled. It did not help. Then I thought it was the supplement that I started to eat, so I stopped for a few days. It did not help either. I told my mom about it, and she said “I could be the eye drop that you are using, I had the same problem before” I didn’t bother about the statement.

Today I read from a chinese newspaper that our normal way of using eye drop is wrong, i.e. we should not squeeze a drop of the medication into the eye and blink for a few times, this is wrong because the medicine will possibly drain to the whole body and some of the content may harm the heart or body. We should instead press our finger on both the inner corner of the eye after using eye drop to prevent the medicine from draining to the body.

First, I was surprised that the eye drop can actually drain to the body and second I don’t understand how by pressing the inner corner of the eye can prevent the eye drop from draining to the body:-

According to Wikipedia, there is a tube that connects your tear duct to your nasal passage called the nasolacrimal duct. The nasolacrimal duct carries tears from the lacrimal sac into the nasal cavity. Excess tears flow through nasolacrimal duct which opens in the nose. This is the reason the nose starts to run when a person is crying, or why one can sometimes taste eye drops. So I take it that all these are connected, that’s how the eye drop can drain from eye – nose – throat, and what my mom said is true.

Then I found this in one of the eye drop practice guidance by Royal Pharmaceutical Society in Great Britain, guess what the newspaper said is also true. And on top of these two discoveries, I also noticed that we should pull the lower eyelid instead of the upper eyelid to apply the eye drop, why have I been so wrong? I’ve been literally “swallowing” eye drop for almost one week, and I get to realize this on the last day of the treatment.

“Patients should be advised to wash and dry hands before and after use. Tilt the head back and gently pull the LOWER EYELID out to form a pouch. Squeeze the bottle to release one drop into the lower eyelid. Try not to touch the eye or lashes with the nozzle. Blink several times to help spread the drug. Repeat the process for each drop used. Eye infections tend to spread to the other eye (and to other people — avoid sharing towels, facecloths, etc), so it is usual to use the drops in both eyes if they are both infected.

Patients sometimes get a taste of eye drops in the mouth or a feeling that drops are running down the throat. Pressing a finger against the inner corner of the eye (by the nose) for about a minute after using the drops may help to stop the drops draining into nose and throat.”

So tuan-tuan and puan-puan, please follow instruction next time when you have to use eye drop. I tried and it really worked no more eye drop tasting and in fact when I pressed the inner eye corner, I can feel the eye drop is filling up around the eye pocket and the eye is totally soaked in the moisture until it almost overflows.

crazy little thing called love

When I heard the promo about the church will be hosting the stage performance for a “romantic drama” (that’s how I perceived from the title of the drama), I was so excited. Love has always been a subject I could not from school, from workshop, from book, from anywhere else I could think so.

So I started to imagine “Erm.. the drama will tell you how to love? Or tell you how to love properly? Or tell you to love with dignity? Or…” I just so much look forward to a “ lesson of love” from the touring theatre company. In order to convince myself and invite others to this drama strongly recommended by the pastor, I ran a check on them (as usual).

Who are they?
Footstool players are a group of Christian inspired to equip Malaysian churches to use theatre as a medium of communication, they were grew out of a drama ministry in one of the local church, they have been providing a series of thought-provoking drama to many churches since 2001. (I’m not sure if they are trained actors and actresses, but they all did a great show)

Why Footstool?
Footstool players give me the thought that they are poor in its nature that they can only afford to act on stage with a footstool, not a Lorenzo sofa set. I felt silly to find out that they actually took their name from the bible verse, it is meant to be a humble place of meeting between ourselves and God. “Exalt the Lord our God, and worship at his footstool.” Psalm 99:5

The sketches
So I went for the drama last week with my half blinded eyes (second day after eye laser), people must be impressed that a blind person also came to watch the drama ( I was wearing huge sunglasses in the dark auditorium, because the spotlight causes glares to my eyes)

The play is divided into two acts: the first one deals with love, courtship and marriage, a lot of laughter, almost like chow xing chee movie; while the second one deals with family relationship, that’s where we got into the real issues in the real world.

It almost covers all sort of possible relationship you can think of under the sun, I’m sure you will be touched here and there along the story, whether you are fighting with your girlfriend who loves who more, whether your boyfriend never wants to say sorry to you. Some family with adopted son, some father ran away with another woman, some daughter rebel against the mother and some husband working too hard and abandon the wife etc.

The message
But all in all, I think the message of the drama is to speak out to your love ones, we are living in a reserved culture where we seldom express our love to our parents, brothers sisters or even spouses and many times with the pressure to live, to work, to achive, we have forgotten that we indeed love someone in our heart. I do not want to tell you so much about the story, else what’s the point of you going for the drama knowing everything already. I can not tell you much about the message either, because everyone gets little something different from the scenarios.

The performance
If you missed the performance last week, the Foostool Players will be performing at The Kuala Lumpur Performing Arts Centre(KLPac) Pentas 2 as follows (I don’t earn commission from this, just thought it’s a nice show to catch)

6-8, 13-15 November 2008 @ 8:30pm
8-9, 15-16 November 2008 @ 3:00pm

Tickets: RM30 adults / RM20 students, senior citizens and disabled
Tickets available from: KLPac Box Office Tel: (03) 4047 9000
Actors Studio at BSC Tel: (03) 2094 0400

Goodbye Contact Lens

It’s been 3 days since I did the eye laser at Optimax last week, in fact I very much wanted to write immediately after I came out from the operation room. “It was such a awful experience and I never felt so helpless before” (that’s what I thought there and then, don’t worry, things were not that bad after all)

I was very nervous from the day I decided to go for the laser treatment, I was worry what if they over correct the eye sight, what if the eye do not heal in time, what if I waters get into the eyes accidentally etc. I was still indecisive until I lay myself on the operation bed.

I consider myself lucky that there is no condition with my eyes and I go proceed to do the most conventional type of treatment available (in other words the cheapest). (Don’t worry about what to choose if you attend to go for what, your eyes will choose for you because different eye condition required different treatment)

So I signed up myself to do the LASIK treatment, (to cut the story short, we go straight to the operation day,) Before going in to the operation theatre, the doctor double triple checked my eyes and drew a mark on my eye ball (can you believe it? my eyes are numb after one drop of anesthetic and I literally looked at the marker pen point a dot on my eye)

And she explained again what are the risks of undergoing this operation, saying about 5 percent of the patients have to go through enhancement treatment if their eye sights are not corrected properly, about 1 our a 200 thousand get inflammation problem and ruined the operation, and if machine turn out faulty, it’s not their fault. (wow, that’s the best word of encouragement for a patient before surgery)

And she emphasis that when you are on the operation theatre, just focus your eyes on the red light twinkling on top of you, whatever is it, DO NOT MOVE YOUR EYE BALL, because the laser is coming down to your eyes and anything could happened when you move. OK, I got it right, what’s so difficult about focusing at one dot.

The operation began

I was totally dressed up in a surgery patient outfit: the “baju tidur”, the “ shower cap” and the “factory shoe cover”, the doctor even asked me not to put any hair gel, any face cream or the same sort, can imagine how ugly I was. Then I rest my head on the “basin like” compartment, doctor used a clamp to clip on the upper and lower part of the eye so that the eye will not blink (believe me, it feels like the same when the kid trying to tear off the Barbie doll eye). Then when everything is in place, the doctor asked me to look at the red light and gave the instruction to the assistant to “start suction”.

The operation halted

They placed a ring like blade on my eye ball, pressed it down and start cutting a flap in order to do the laser later (this is not the blade-free technology, for those that are faint hearted, please please go for the blade-free treatment). When the ring was pressed on the eyeball, I lost sight for a few seconds, and I was panic and when hysterical, at the same time I can feel the blade like tiny scissors cutting off the cornea skin bit by bit, even though there was no pain, just the ticklish sensation has really got unto my nerves.

That’s when I started to lost control of my focus, I heard the doctor said” don’t move, don’t move, look at the red light.” and her hand was pining my head from any movement. I was trying hard to look for the red light, all I saw was a vision of red, all red, I didn’t know where is the twinkling red light, and the doctor had to stop the laser for about three to four times I can’t even recall. When she repeatedly said “ don't move, look at the red light!” deep down my hear I feel like shouting out “ I can’t find the red light la, you think I don’t want to stay focus!?”

I nearly want to cry and stop the operation for the left eye, I was all frightened.. But I was not given the time to think about it or say it out and they started to do the second treatment, luckily after one bad experience, I managed to stayed more focus and the operation only stopped once for the left eye.

The operation completed

After I came out from the operation theatre, the doctor checked on the eye again to make sure the flap was closed nicely without any wrinkles, so everything was alright. And I asked the doctor many times “ will the result be affected? did I move too much?” Doctor said “ don’t worry so much, just pray hard. Some patients move a lot but the result was good, some didn't move at all but the result was not satisfactory, it depends a lot on the individual, you just take care of your eyes now and come back for check up tomorrow.”

I went back with my eyes closed and heart hanging in the air all the way to home, tried to sleep as much as I could and avoid television for the first 24 hours as advised by the doctor. Guess what I do when I couldn’t sleep being too excited? I on the television and “listen” to the drama series with the eye closed, though I don’t understand some part of it, I find it an interesting experience, like my grandmother’s time listen to “ lai de fu sheng”

The aftercare

The after care of the treatment is rather easy, antibiotic eye drop and artificial tears every two hours for the first 3 days and followed by how many times how many days in the next 4 days and next one week and so on and so forth. But the funny thing is that I have to wear “ultra man” eye shield to sleep for the first one week in order to prevent the accidental eye rubbing during sleep.

When Tzeh put the eye shield on me and fixed it with tape the first night, we could not stopped laughing and took photo for remembrance, I said I looked like the kidnapped rich girl waiting for the parents to pay ransom and he said I looked like the sexual abuse victim (geram!!) I said it’s ultra man mask and he insist it’s dragon ball mask, at least we still get some fun out of the whole trauma..


The check up
The first thing that I see very clearly after the treatment was Tzeh sitting beside me (cheh, like so loving, he was busy surfing the internet la) I shouted with excitement “ I can see you so clearly now!!!” Thank God I do not have much of the dry eye and haloes symptom and I only left with 25 and 50 short sighted on the right and left eye respectively.

Doctor said the right eye that went through a lot movement during the operation ironically doing better than the left eye, and there is slight inflammation on the left eye, she prescribe one additional eye drop to cure to infection and we have scheduled for a check up tomorrow (hopefully everything will be fine)


The side track
Heard a friend of Tzeh actually accompanied the girlfriend into the operation theatre and witnessed how the blade cut off the flap, how the laser burnt into sparks etc. So if you are considering the eye laser treatment, make sure you grab your partner to witness the gory procedure.

28 days: what your cycle reveals about your love life, mood and potential

This is the title of a book a buddy gave to me as a present before she shift to her new house, at the first page of the book, there’s this sweet message from her: A simple and yet special gift for you to know yourself better when I’m not conveniently around for you!

Though I don’t enjoy the book as much as I thought I would be, I always keep it in my office drawer, sometimes to flip on a particular day to see how the hormone affects my life or sometimes just to look at it ( it feel nice even just with the thought that she cares about me)

I remember she shared how she finds the book useful because it helps her to understand why she behaves differently at different time of the month. Say there are certain days she will think twice before she go shopping and certain days she just feel like splashing the money away.

I was amazed at first as I know for sure hormones do affect us in much way: how we feel, who we like, what we shop, when we eat etc. I was hoping that the book will give me some tips on how to deal with this inevitable change in my body, especially to break free from the PMS symptoms.

After reading it on and off several times, now only I found out that it’s actually a horoscope based on the body's own natural hormone cycle. Using so called scientific research, it claimed to be able to predict what practically every aspect of the day will be like based solely on the ups and downs of their monthly hormones.

I learnt a new term called “Hormonology” today, quoted from their website “Once you know how your hormones affect you every day, you know what your day is going to be like. Then, you'll learn the best days of your cycle to do practically everything such as: ask for a raise, flirt with your crush, plan a vacation, have the most fulfilling sex.” ?!?!?!

Although I don’t believe in horoscope or fortune telling, probably many of you out there would like to explore something new just for the fun of it, you can find out more information about the hormonology at http://www.hormonology.info/

AJ had a dream

AJ : I had a dream last night

GD : What about?

AJ: I dreamt of robbers broke in to my house

GD: Then?

AJ: I was so afraid when they found the safe box in the cupboard

GD: Why?

AJ: Because there is no money inside and I do not know how to open the safe box

GD: Huh?

AJ: I bought it ages ago and never bother to even learn how to use it. If I tell that to the
robbers, they will sure think I'm playing a fool with them

GD: So?

AJ: I woke up, I walked straight to the safe box, read the manual, fix the password and I feel so much relived now.

GD: Good

AJ: Yeah, even if robbers come next time I will know how to open the safe box for them.

Help!!! Cholesterol is killing me

Life has been tasteless for the past few days, tasteless not because I lost my taste buds, tasteless because I lost the right to eat without thinking. Doctor said I have high cholesterol, my HDL reads 1.96 and my LDL reads 3.8, so the total cholesterol is 6.1, which is way above normal range of 5.2 (what a disaster@#*&!)


First thing I reach home is to study what on earth is LDL and HDL and how do I get rid of it soonest possible to redeem my “makan” right, oh no!!!!! I cannot imagine how life would be without beef, lamb, squid, crab, egg, cheese and the list go on and on without stop. So what else is left to be eaten? Oat, fruit and vegetables, arghhhhh!!!!


Although cholesterol is very widely heard in our daily life, but now only I found out that cholesterol is a waxy, fat-like substance that is made in the body by the liver. Cholesterol forms part of every cell in the body and serves many vital functions. Our bodies need cholesterol to:
- Maintain healthy cell walls
- Make hormones
- Make vitamin D
- Make bile acids, which aid in fat digestion


Sometimes, however, our bodies make more cholesterol than we really need, and this excess cholesterol circulates in the bloodstream. High levels of cholesterol in the blood can clog blood vessels and increase the risk for heart disease and stroke.


There are 2 main types of cholesterol:
- LDL is "bad cholesterol." It can clog the arteries, increasing the risk of heart attack and stroke. Optimal number: Less than 2.6 MMOL/L
- HDL is "good cholesterol." It attaches to bad cholesterol and escorts it to the liver, which filters it out of the body. So HDL reduces the amount of bad cholesterol in the system. Desirable number: 1.04 MMOL/L or higher.


Total cholesterol is the sum of all types of cholesterol in the blood. It should be less than 5.2 MMOL/L. (I have more than enough of the good and bad cholesterol in this case here)


I’ve also checked online for the causes of high blood cholesterol and I could not believe how on earth did I get high cholesterol for I am not over weight, I exercise regularly, I am not under stress but.. erm.. ok la!!! I like to eat high fat meats, especially “fei cha siew”, fatty lamb and cuttle fish.


So I get myself the following cholesterol lowering plan:


- I bought myself Quaker’s oatmeal for breakfast ( I hope I can stand the tastelessness of it) . Oatmeal contains soluble fiber, which reduces the bad cholesterol. Soluble fiber is also found in such foods as kidney beans, apples, pears, barley and prunes. Soluble fiber appears to reduce the absorption of cholesterol in the intestines. Ten grams or more of soluble fiber a day decreases your total and LDL cholesterol. Eating 1 1/2 cups of cooked oatmeal provides 6 grams of fiber. If I add fruit, such as bananas, I'll add about 4 more grams of fiber, and that’s enough for a day.


- I also bought myself Salmon Oil tablet for daily supplement of Omega-3 fatty acids ( I also hope I can stand the strong smell left in the mouth). Research has supported the cholesterol-lowering benefits of eating fatty fish because of its high levels of omega-3 fatty acids. Omega-3 fatty acids also help the heart in other ways such as reducing blood pressure and the risk of blood clots. In people who have already had heart attacks, fish oil — or omega-3 fatty acids — significantly reduces the risk of sudden death.


- I tell myself to stick to Pilates class ( I hope I can stand the boringness of it) Pilates is an exercise method, designed to elongate, strengthen and restore the body to balance. Based upon an anatomical understanding of the body's muscular and skeletal systems, the Pilates use exercises that integrate the whole body to re-educate and restore it to optimum muscular and skeletal function. There’s no link between pilates and cholesterol, it’s just something I picked up recently:)


Please give me moral support for the cholesterol fighting plan and do not tempt me into any high cholesterol food. I shall update you with the results in 3 months time. For those of you who have no idea what is your cholesterol level, please go and make appointment with the nearest clinic, you never know (huh, suddenly become so health conscious).

when my parents go holiday

I’ve been traveling quite a lot in the past two years, I’ve learnt from checking the packing list one week in advance to packing the luggage one night before departure, things has been so routine to me now that I prefer to live on business trip more than home.

I do not worry about when to go, where to stay and how to commute anymore, the working culture here has trained me to be a “last minute” person, things will be worked out anyway, so don’t spend so much time thinking about how to work things out.

Until yesterday my parents told me “ this holiday we are going for holiday: mama is going to Sabah and papa is going to China.” What?!?! You are going on separate holiday? Nope, we are taking turn to go holiday, we have separate schedule and companion.

At first I told well it's good for them to take some time off to rest and relax, you know “parenting” job does not offer them any annual leave or sick leave through out the years. They have joined many local tours whenever they can squeeze out the time and energy to have fun a little.

When I come back from work today, my mom casually said “I use your black colour bag for my trip ya” Then so many thoughts crossed my mind over the split second: When is the flight? Where is the hotel? Who is the room mate? What is the hotel number? How is the itinerary?

I thought I do not want to over react, so I just nod my head and walk to my room. But when I was in the shower, my mind continued to wonder: What have she packed? What have she not packed? How is the weather there? How much money does she needs? I nearly want to go straight to her room and open up the luggage to check.

It feels just so strange that it’s time when we worry about our parents like they did when we were kids, I now finally understand why parents never stop worrying about their children, it is the never ending love that they have for the children. I feel so much like giving her a goodbye hug before she went to bed, but I’m worry that I may scare her off, lol.

Stay Away from Cervical Cancer

It was to my great surprise when the gynae told me the other day that we can now take vaccine to prevent cervical cancer, gynae took out a brochure and told me “Think about it, it’s good for yourself”. Well, firstly I have not heard about it before, secondly I doubt we can prevent cancer. So I go on to study about it, here’s some fact to share:

What is cervical cancer?
Cervical cancer is a disease caused by the abnormal growth and division of cells that make up the cervix, which is the narrow, lower end of the uterus (womb). Cervix is the neck of the womb (uterus) and it connects the body of the uterus to the vagina (birth canal).

What is the cause?
Cervical cancer is caused by a common virus called Human PapillomaVirus (HPV) and at least 50% of people who are sexually active will get genital HPV. HPV has nothing to do with HIV, the virus that causes AIDS. There are 46 genetic types of HPV, but not all are dangerous. Only certain types of HPV, which can be transmitted from one person to another during sexual contact, increase the risk of cell dysplasia (abnormal cell growth) and/or progression to cervical cancer.

Who is at risk?
Every year, about half a million women have cervical cancer and about a quarter million die, and it is sad to know that every two minutes a woman dies of cervical cancer. In Malaysia, an average of about 2,000 to 3,000 women are admitted to hospitals for cervical cancer every year and about 500 die from it. The National Cancer Registry Report 2003 lists cervical cancer as the second-most common cancer that affects women in Malaysia, accounting for 12.9% of all female cancers.

Can it be prevented?
Until recently the only way to prevent cervical cancer wa regular Pap Smear testing to look for early signs of the disease. Pap Smear is a test that checks the cell on the cervix for changes that could lead to cancer. The good news is there is now other means of protection against cervical cancer.

Types of vaccines:

1. Cervarix
Cervarix is a vaccine intended to protect females against the diseases caused by infection with Human Papillomavirus (HPV) types 16 and 18. HPV types 16 and 18 are responsible for approximately 70% of cervical cancer cases.

2. Gardasil :
Gardasil is the cervical cancer vaccine that helps protect against 4 types of human papillomavirus (HPV): 2 types that cause 70% of cervical cancer cases, and 2 more types that cause 90% of genital warts cases. Gardasil is for girls and young women ages 9 to 26.

How the vaccine works?
Vaccination is to prevent HPV infection and may help to reduce risk of cervical cancer and other HPV related diseases caused by certain types of HPV. Ideally, a female should get the vaccine before they are sexually active because the vaccine is most effective in female who have not yet acquired any of the HPV types covered by the vaccine.

How much it costs?
At the moment, the market price of each dose of vaccine ranges from RM400-RM450 per dose. One will receive 3 doses where after the first does, the second and third dose will be given 2 months and 6 months after the first dose.

I came across this when I ran through all the news clipping :“The decision to protect your health is your own responsibility – you owe it to yourself, your husband and your children to do what it takes to protect yourself from this disease.” I’m seriously considering the vaccine, and you hope you feel the same and please spread the news to all ladies around.

do you want to know when will you die?

What will normal people response to this question? Many of us will say “choi!!! dai gat lei si!!!*” Death always seems to be a dark and gloomy word to think about, what more to think about out own death. If given a choice, many of us rather not to know when we will die so that we don’t have to face the remaining days left with fear and tears.

But today I read a book about this person who said “I’m very lucky to know when I would die because I have all the time I get to say good-bye.” He even had a “living funeral” for himself, for he thinks it is a waste when all the friends and family pay tribute to the dead but they never got to hear any of it. He cried and laughed with the dearest people in his life and all the heartfelt things he never get to said to those he loves he said that day.

He is the main character in the best selling nonfiction book by American author Mitch Albom “Tuesday with Morrie”, Professor Morrie Schwartz. This is a true story of the last lesson that the author learnt from his college psychology professor who is dying from some serious neurological disease called amyotrophic lateral sclerosis (ALS), also known as Lou Gehrig's Disease.

Death is the main topic around all the topics they discussed every week (if you want to know why Tuesday, go grab a copy of the book); it is death that makes Morrie had profound philosophies about living. I especially like what Morrie said when Mitch asked him if he felt sorry for himself. Morrie said he give himself a good cry if he need it, but then he concentrate on all the good things still in his life. He doesn’t allow himself anymore self-pity than that, a little each morning, a few tears and that’s all.

I thought exactly the same like Mitch about all the people who spent many of their waking hours feeling sorry for themselves, maybe they don’t stay in a luxury condo, maybe they don’t drive a sports car, maybe they don’t have a rich and handsome boyfriend and the list go on and on and they don’t intend to stop it. Sometimes we focus too much on the material things on earth and we forgotten about the most basic and original reason and live on.

I like this story I heard about this teacher who ask the students in the class “What are the seven wonders of the world?” Some said the Great Wall, the Pyramid, the Pisa Tower and so on, but there is one little girl who put up her tiny hand and answer “ The seven wonders of the world is to able to see, to hear, to smell, to taste, to touch, to feel and to love.” We should be grateful to God every morning we open our eyes, for we have been given another day in life.

Tiffany & Co

今天我要和你说一个和Tiffany有关的故事；当然说到Tiffany，这个故事是和女人有关；当然说到Tiffany和女人，这个故事是和求婚有关；当然说到Tiffany、女人和求婚，这个故事背后都和为了钻石而牺牲的男人有关。

嗯，既然你什么都知道了，那我就不用费那么多力气把这个故事整在一起写日志了，今天的故事到此结束！！

呵呵，不好意思，太久没有写日志，竟然变得有点懒散。。

今天心血来潮想起我北京的室友Mila这个时候应该拍完婚纱照，就发给邮件问她什么时候有照片看。结果我得到的回复如下：

“我老公偷偷在北京给我买的Tiffany & Co :)
在我们派婚纱照的时候,突然拿出来送给我的,
那天正好是我们交往一周年。”

哇，哇，哇。。我真的是看傻眼了，这可是我听过最浪漫的求婚过程了，在拍婚纱照的实景提出求婚，一来可以给新娘子一个百分百惊喜，二来现场摄影师可以顺道把整个过程拍摄下来。实在太感人了，我看到都差点感动的说不出话来了。不知道Mila当时的反应是如何呢？

当初还每天晚上和我抱怨说关于结婚的是Ted总是表现得爱理不理的模样，婚期，拍照，婚戒，注册，蜜月都是Mila一手包办，有时候她还委屈的觉得好像自己在逼婚一样，一点兴奋甜蜜的感觉也没有。

我就说“你还以为是电视剧，男主角跪地求婚，女主角感动到痛哭流泪才像结婚的感觉么？现实生活就是这么残酷，当两个人到达论嫁的时候其实大家都心里有数，那还会有那么多闲情搞什么浪漫求婚仪式。”

Mila总会闷闷不乐的嘟起嘴巴说“是啊，我就是想要像电视剧的女主角有一个难忘的求婚经验，有一样受宠若惊的感觉。毕竟结婚是一辈子一次的事，怎么能马马虎虎就混过去了呢？”我顿时感觉到电视剧真的害人不浅。

真没有想到平时被批评的最木呐的男人为了自己的女人竟然可以使出这么高招的手段，Mila这次肯定完完全全融化在他手里了。。

Claudine's Diary

Today marked an important date in Claudine’s calendar, she decided to throw away her diary written over the past one year. At first, she thought she wanted to shred it, burn it, and bury it, she does not even want to look at what had been written, she want to remove this part of memory in her life, for it is too painful to recall.

While she walked out the door, she hold back on second thought. “Do I want to leave this part of my life empty? Should I just look at it one last time before I thrash it? Or should I gain independent from the past memory colonial in conjunction with the Merdeka Day?” She is not crazy yet since she could still have some sense of humor.

The first line on Claudine’s diary read like this: Is it pathetic if I do not have to go ahead for the fear of losing it one day? She remembers clearly that was the time she met Robbie, Robbie had touched her heart since the very beginning, he is decent, smart and humorous. Claudine never thought they would eventually end up together, she kept telling herself not to fall in love again, at least for a six month time.

For a few months, Claudine was not very sure of her feeling, has she allowed him to get too close to her, has she fooled herself to open up herself to the risk of being hurt again. She strongly resisted any body contact in anyway with Robbie, not even to look at her in a close distance. The first time he tried to hold her, she ran away like a few kilometers away bare footed on the beach.

Then they had their first fight on Claudine’s birthday, she asked for three days break to cool down. For a moment of time, she really thought Robbie is hurting her more than loving her, or like they always like to say it “love hurts”. But Claudine was surprised herself why she did not write anything about Robbie’s confession to her; that was the sweetest memory she had of him. But also with the superb absent minded, she suspect Robbie would not even remembered what had he said now.

She struggled when Tom, Dick and Harry also had bad comments about Robbie being playful and childish. She wanted him to come back to proven them wrong, and at the same time she was putting a bet with her own trust, she was so afraid that the whole world was right and she was the last one to find out, but it was too late, for she was already in love.

As Claudine read through her diary, she began to feel more and more reluctant to destroy the diary, she wants to keep this memory and read when she is in her seventies or eighties, when she has forgotten how was is like to be in love.

Robbie had tried not only once, but several times to read her diary when she bathed. He claimed that her diary does not look like an diary, and it was exposed with no lock at all for the first time, but the second time he said Claudine did not hide it after the first time and it was still in the same place.

After reading one two pages of the diary, he even made a conclusion through his observation. Claudine only write diary when she was upset, he could tell from the hand writing: anger, frustration and helpless. Yes, Claudine was not an articulate person, she used to hide her feeling and let her emotion burst when she can’t hold it anymore.

Claudine tore the diary apart after taking a deep deep breath, there are things hat should go with the ashes and there are things she should look at the present and appreciate what she already has.

同一个世界 同一个梦想 （第十三序： 工作篇）

在北京这段日子最受不了的不是长时间熬夜，也不是要管的事情太多，而是公司这种大爷的文化。我不知道这个字眼用的妥不妥当，反正我就觉得工作时间你是我的上司，下班以后大家要不可以做朋友，要不也是的平起平坐的陌生人。可是我们所谓的“领导”不但没有带领我们，反而导入歧途。

怎么说呢，我们身为管理部门，应该以身作则，在任何时候保持同样的原则工作，这样下面的人才会服从你，最算接待有多不满意，也会明白你已经尽全力帮他们争取，对吧？可是my super nanny 里面的大主管KT不但一点支持我们工作的意识也没有，而且经常，不是经常，应该是无时无刻的在增加我的工作难度，不但只没有赞赏我前期努力落实的门票方案，而且还含血喷人说我没有给他争取最好的门票，要我好好会去反省。

你们可能会想，哎呀，可能身为高层对下面工作细节不了解，他只想为客户争取最好的效果。哈，你们错了，是彻底的错了，KT这次来京的目的，根本不想管我的客户是否接待妥当，他只关心他更高领导是否玩得尽兴，甚至要我牺牲客户的门票给他去“做人情”，这种人你说呃不呃心？每天看到我只会说一句话“还有没有门票？”早饭，午饭，晚饭都会问一次，死怕我会自己吞了门票，还是死怕自己人情做的不够。

另外，他还有一个很大爷的习惯。有一天他手里拿着几张比赛门票，公司通知写的是10：00开始的半决赛，他自己上网有看到10：30才正式开始，奥运有一个热线电话专门提供咨询服务，电话号码是什么他很清楚，电话在他面前。他偏偏要等到我回到作为，叫我打电话去问清楚。我当时真的差一点就忍不住说“你有票，有信息，有电话，有手有脚，为什么不能自己问？”

小主管YD 也不比他好很多，在我收拾好行李在愁着什么方法可以把超重危机减到最低的时候，他想我宣布一个坏消息，说某某领导忘了带奥运几年T恤会去，要我帮忙带回马来。 我第一个反应就是“不行，我的行李已经超重。”他竟然气忿忿的说“你怎么这样？领导让你带点东西会去，你想也不想就说不行。如果是我的话，我肯定把自己东西扔了，也要给领导带回去。”

做下属需要做到这个程度么？我肯为你带是礼节性的帮忙，并不是我的工作职责。我们公司的人就是分不清楚在工在私，反正觉得你是我的领导，我就应该在所有方位讨好你。领导随便一句话（和工作无关的喔），就像皇帝的圣旨，上刀山下油锅都要扑回来。很多时候升职考虑不但只工作能力，内部公关肯定占了很大的比例。所以才会有那么多无能的人在管事。

同一个世界 同一个梦想 （第十二序： 女人篇）

这次在北京最大的收获不是看比赛，也不是逛商店，而是上了一门“友情课”。我和Mila（中国女孩啦，人家也改了英文名）朝夕相处了一个多月，让我感受到原来两个女人时间感情可以那么深，在她等我睡觉的时候窝在我被单里的那一刹那我还真怀疑自己是不是“同性恋”。

我们已经不是第一次同床共枕，去年出差我们都已经睡在同一张大床（被逼的，因为酒店没有双人间，所以公司把我们几个女生搞在单人间，连想加张床酒店都说没有了）。记得第一天晚上我们两个都没有睡好，一来心情本来就尴尬，二来怕转身吵到对方。后来可能因为慢慢习惯或者工作劳禄大家都不再觉得别扭。

最记得有一天早上，我在刷牙的时候，她竟然若无其事的走进来便便，我差点连整支牙刷都吞进肚子。她们在你面前换衣根本就是家常便饭，甚至前一天她关着身子从洗手间走出来拿毛巾我都习以为常。虽然她口里还有说“你别看我！”我也刚好摘下隐形眼镜没看清楚，隔天眼睛还是长了“眼挑针”，原来偷看人冲凉眼睛长苞的说法不是没有根据的。

另外有一次我们在市区玩得三更半夜在回家的路上，她累了就靠在我肩膀上睡觉，我突然间领悟到不但小女人常常以为有个男人可以给自己依靠就是幸福，原来被人依靠的感觉也很踏实舒服的。有时候我和Anita逛街，他也会挽着我的手像情人般，我虽然有点不自在，也会看在她是美女份上放纵一下，嘻嘻。

临走时间我们几个女人帮出去唱k忘了时间回家，我们便到Vivian酒店借宿一宵。三个同年纪女人，一个结婚2年，一个拍拖1年，一个失恋4年，躺在一个大床上大谈男人经，那个晚上我竟然觉得世界上如果没有男人其实也不一定很可怕。这个Gloria就是在“I don’t want a boyfriend” 的大女人，最近打听到她前男友的事迹终于明白她为什么到现在还没有找到“第二春”，原来在“曾经沧海难为水，除却巫山不是云”。

Vivian一本正经的说，女人到了我们这个年龄就要向现实低头，应该选择一个条件较好，没有触电感觉的老公，毕竟爱到天昏地暗的火花总有一天会冷却，只有细水长流的稳重才是婚姻最大的保障（虽然找到这种老公自己的外遇机率可能急速上升）。男人，女人，就是人生永远也修不完的一堂课。。

同一个世界 同一个梦想 （第十一序： 开闭幕篇）

奥运会终于落幕，我们在北京的工作也算完满结束。同样的地点，同样的人物，同样的韩国烧烤，昨天晚上的感觉却完全不一样。开幕典礼的时候，大家对张艺谋准备的每一个环节都感到惊喜，尤其我们坐在鸟巢不远的地方竟然可以清楚看到其中一个大脚印从我们眼前“走过”，那一秒的兴奋到现在很非常真实。闭幕典礼开始没有两分钟，大家都开始期待这个抽象的表演尽快结束，除了规模超大的烟火在电视上还能看到一点震撼，现场观众除了狂欢应该没有觉得什么特别吧。

这次可以和一堆中国人民在当地北京从头到尾度过见证2008年北京奥运，我应该感到非常庆幸，这个经验和我自己在家看电视肯定相差很远。在这里，我可以感受到原来中国人民对各个运动项目理解那么深，对每个运动员实力和经历一清二楚，而我自己连马来西亚总共派了多少运动员来参加什么项目我都不知道（好丢脸）。尤其在马来西亚和中国队在羽毛球决战的时候，同事特地的在我面前说“不好意思，我们赢了”我竟然无语。

也有其他同事问我，“你在看比赛的时候会为中国加油么？”我回答“在没有马来西亚运动员参赛的情况之下，我还是会给中国队加油的，毕竟我公公婆婆都是中国人。”对中国，我的感觉是挺矛盾的，一方面我不希望自己和这种文化水准跟不上时代尖端的人扯上关系，一方面自己身为华人又为中国主办奥运成功感到骄傲。人，为什么总是在自相矛盾呢。

同一个世界 同一个梦想 （第十序： 京剧篇）

前期Anita搞了几张国家大剧院的门票请我们看“新白蛇传”，我一看门票，是京剧喔。没错，来北京是应该看看最传统的京剧，可是我心想自己应该会睡着或者闷晕吧。为了体验一下这个难得的经验，我抱着忐忑的心情走进大剧院门口。

国家大剧院这个新景点我去年已经专程打的士来照相，而且还是白天来照了“白昼版”晚上在赶车回来拍“夜间版”，没有办法，这个“鸟蛋”真的太有艺术价值。可是这次进入剧院看演出我才发觉原来入口就建在鸟蛋前面的池水下方，入场的时候抬头就可以看到水流在头顶经过，可有趣了。

可惜，要进入剧院比上飞机安检还要严格管制，相机根本不允许带入，所以我们一张照片都没有拍上，散场以后虽然可以去寄存间领回相机随便照相，我们每次都匆匆忙忙赶班车，而且我的索尼相机照夜景有特别不好，所以浪费了两次照相机会。（嗯，我说了两次吗？是啦是啦，后来又有人请我们看芭蕾舞剧，所以又来了一次）

这个视觉版的新白蛇传并没有令我失望，主要原因它不仅仅是原版京剧，演员们还插入其他杂技，舞蹈，功夫元素，加上如梦似幻的背景，娱乐型十足。而且舞台两旁还有中英文字幕，想看不明白也很难（虽然在花旦表演超高音的时候，我还是会起鸡皮疙瘩）。

另外一场“红色娘子军”就挺让人失望的。可能因为我之前看过老外的“斑马”所以对这种芭蕾演出期望非常高，我还特地上网查了一下这个娘子军的来头，人家可是中国中央芭蕾舞团红透四十多年的经典演出。

可能我不懂艺术，西方的芭蕾舞蹈加上东方的伴奏，海南岛的剧情，戏剧化的演出，还有中场歌曲演奏，不好意思，我真的不懂欣赏。

同一个世界 同一个梦想 （第九序：卡拉篇）

前几天有个阿某请吃饭，邀请我们去一个地道的云南餐厅吃饭。我对云南菜特别有好感，口味不重，在众多超辣超油的西川、河南、西安菜等等对味蕾犹有一股清新的凉风掠过的爽快。 和这帮人吃饭每次都要来一点“白酒**”，这次点的白酒还是从云南空运过来的，装在竹筒里，配合服务员身上穿着的传统服装，这餐饭吃起来感觉很正。

有一个奇怪的环节是我从来没有看过的，我听同事和服务员说他们已经报号等表演，我又隐隐约约听到隔壁包厢有歌唱声，就以为有几个云南姑娘过来表演什么民间音乐。就在晚饭吃的七七八八的时候，看见3个穿正装的姑娘拿着酒杯进来，我以为是阿某的朋友进来敬酒，3个姑娘围着阿某唱歌，唱完以后就把酒给干了。接着又到另外一个阿某敬酒，每个阿某不同的歌曲，不同的祝福语，一问原来他们是销售部的，专门给客户敬酒（就是我们报号的表演）。

有一个小么调皮的嬉弄小姑娘说不愿意用手提杯喝酒，结果姑娘一声不语拿起酒杯含在口里，身子往下一蹲，酒杯酒正好对这小伙的嘴，另外两个姑娘就押着小么让他把酒给干了。小么被逗乐了，要求再来一个，小姑娘这次口里含着汤匙，二话不说把白酒往下一倒，又押着小么直接把酒往口里灌。大家都拍手叫绝，想不到在正经八百的餐馆还有这种场面观看。后来听阿某说，千万不要在少数民族面前耍帅，别人分分钟排长队轮流敬酒，那你就完了。

吃完饭以后去麦乐迪唱K，听说是北京最好的卡拉OK，外表看来没有什么特别，除了中间留了很大的空间，好像一个舞池，还有一个小电视，可以让大家陶醉在酒吧拄唱的幻想里头。 唱歌，不就是拿起麦克风张开嘴巴对这大电视发泄，可是这个晚上我可大开眼界。

首先，每个包厢都配有乐器助阵，而且阿某一帮人都兴致勃勃拿起乐器在旁晃着晃着，小么
还兴高采烈跳起舞来，还热情邀请每个在座朋友陪他共舞，每人唱完一首歌他就狂喊“棒！”，我都被他给吓坏，不知道是因为他们民族特别热情还是醉意来了。反正我任何时刻都确保自己离开他至少3公尺以外。

陪着这帮阿某唱经典歌曲，我自己还是挺喜欢的。还和阿某和唱了多首情歌，在唱邓丽君的千言万语的时候，我神情脉脉的望着阿某，牛高马大的他竟然也害臊起来，很搞笑。突然前下一首歌曲竟然是中国国歌五星红旗，而且还唱的气志高扬。我在想世界上还有那个国家人民会在卡拉OK房唱国歌？至少我肯定不会。


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同一个世界 同一个梦想 （第八序： 比赛篇）

昨晚我见证了一个世界记录的诞生！！牙买加飞人博尔特在200米短跑决赛中以19秒30刷新了迈克尔-约翰逊保持了12年的19秒32的世界纪录，成为奥运会男子100米和200米的双冠王，而且在同一届奥运会刷新这两个项目的世界纪录。 历害吧？而且我不是在电视前看的喔，是在现场，是在北京国家体育场“鸟巢”亲眼目睹！！！

太兴奋了。鸟巢9万人全场站立，看着博尔特轻而易举完成200米田径，100米开始九明显看到他和其他运动员的差距，加上他在100米决赛到达终点前还左右张望嚣张的模样，这个史上最强的田径短跑运动员实在太令人震撼了。当他赢了比赛，举起国旗绕场一周时，观众都为他疯狂，连我这个对运动一点都不了解的笨蛋也佩服不已。

除了这个沸腾点，我在同场5000米长跑比赛也看到一个令人感动的小插曲，各个运动员在跑道钻了几圈以后，明显看到一名缅甸运动员报名成绩比所有运动员都落后2分多钟，但是他默默地坚持着，直到自己被套圈还依然独自奔走在长长的跑道上。他默默地跑着，全体观众的掌声紧紧相随着，真是奥林匹克精神的代言人。

在现场看比赛的感觉和电视前看是截然不同的，电视上观看点在任何时间都是最好的，同时还有评论员同声解释，跑道上各个国家运动员标注分明，而且还有慢动作重播、近距离面上表情等等。说真的，好几个比赛同时进行，看的我们挺混乱的，在现场看主要就是感受一下几万人狂欢的气氛，尤其中国运动员出场的时候，欢叫声真的可以震爆整个鸟巢。

上一次来的时候就是短跑100米决赛，可惜我和敏儿两个笨蛋根本不识趣，觉得没什么好期待的，为了赶班车，半途就离场，至少敏儿还要地铁上看到现场直播，我是回到宿舍才知道原来我们错过了一个世界记录的见证。天真的我们还以为进过鸟巢，体验过人浪，为过中国队加油已经很满足了，呵呵。。

在奥运期间观看了几场比赛，基本上所有的主赛馆都体验过（虽然每个比赛我都看不懂）。这次来北京真的无憾了，之前很多很多的努力付出、泪水苦水都值回，毕竟人生在世有这么好一个机会可以从头到尾守在奥运城市，好好感受奥运气氛，实实在在见证了北京这个城市的转变，相信许多年后，这会是我最珍贵记忆之一。

倒数闭幕典礼3天，我竟然有点舍不得。

同一个世界 同一个梦想 （第七序：教堂篇）

在北京去过两间教堂做礼拜，当初就抱着姑且一试的心态上网搜了一下，没有想到在北京这个地方基督教已经早在几百年多前传入。之前听朋友说在中国传教的非法的，教堂都是偷偷摸摸在进行，入境如果被搜到行李有圣经是会被关起来的。我还专门把小小本的圣经装在手提包里，恐怕被海关抓到，真的要感谢神恩，在这个共产党主义的国家神的光芒还是闪着光辉的。

第一次去的是北京市最早的天主教堂“南堂”，1605年由意大利传教师利玛窦在创建，后来被火烧过，重建，又被毁掉，又重建，历史悠久，现为北京市重点保护文物。刚从地铁站出来，左望右望没有看到有什么教堂的踪影，随便问了一个保安，他指着我面前的建筑物“这就是啊”我看了又看，不是吧？北京教堂竟然那么的“北京”？那就跟一般的楼层一样，古色古香，没有一点意大利风格。

穿过了窄窄的小门，看到圣母玛丽亚的塑像，看到壮丽的前门，往里面一走，心里感到很震撼，原来在过来礼拜的人数竞然有这么多。而且这里的各个仪式都相当的传统，教父还是穿着正式的传教服，开场还有专人扛着两根蜡烛伴在神父两旁走进教堂，唱的还是正统的诗歌，证道就是正正经经，原文照读，没有穿插任何幽默字句。忘了重点介绍一下，我去的可是英文弥撒，是绝对的很难得。更难的的事崇拜每个环节都有法语翻译（我差点就晕倒了）。

有没有想过为什么这个教堂会叫做“南堂”呢？会不会有东堂、西堂、北堂呢？别笑喔，都和你们说过北京就是四四方方，就容易辨别东南西北，所以果真还有北京四大堂的存在，四座天主教堂刚好分布在北京的四个角落，可以照顾到各个地方的教徒。在网上想要寻找这几个教堂是否有什么特别典故，也没有啊，中间相隔一百多年，应该不是统一策划的呀。如果有人知道请告诉我。

上周去的“崇文门堂”也称亚斯礼堂，是北京市内最大的一所基督教堂，每天用汉语，朝鲜语做弥撒，美国总统克林顿1998年到中国访问时就来到这里做弥撒（没想到吧？我也是冲着这个而去的，看看能不能还找到任何克林顿的痕迹）。

这个教堂很让我感动，从来教堂崇拜准时开始就已经很难得，一般就是到点以后人们还漫条斯理的走进来，还有些人等完诗歌朗诵完毕才进来。可是这个教堂我提前到达15分钟，座位都几乎已经坐满，大家已经在练习一会要唱的诗歌，教父一样的穿上正式礼服，还有专业的诗歌班在一旁主唱，昏暗色的吊灯打下来，我真的感到内心无惧的平安。

作为第一次参加崇拜的客人，教堂送了我一本小册字“我应该和谁结婚？”哇，需要这么合适么？需要这么直接么？我在想神啊，你想给我什么指示啊？现在我和室友说好每天临睡前都要好好阅读这本书，要在离开北京之前读完这本书，想好要和谁结婚，哈哈。

同一个世界 同一个梦想 （第六序：逛街篇）

那天去了北京几个服装批发市场，在酒店大堂问了一下服务生方向怎么走，他就说“你出了门往东北的方向走，过了一个立交桥，向南走就到了”哦，你们听懂了么？我可真听不懂，东南西北怎么分还勉强知道，在北京这个大城市告诉我东南西北我就真的一点头绪都没有了。可是北京人你问十个有九个会告诉你哎呀北京地图可简单了，就是四四方方的东南西北。每次问路都问得一头雾水，别人解释完以后我会用左右前后重新再问一遍，可丢脸了。

在每个地铁站都有很多得志愿者在待定，有年轻小伙，也有年老白发坐在小凳子，更有残缺人士都为同一个世界，同一个梦想奉献一份绵力。我在想在这人群中能真正为外国游客效劳的会有几个呢？真正了解北京旅游咨询的又有几个呢？反正我这帮人我没有太多的好感，有人说是为了证明中国人强势壮，有人说是中国人为自己感到自豪，我不知道。

去年来北京的时候就逛过这些批发市场，今年再来发现一点不同之处。一来，冒牌货好像被政府打击的七七八八，路上偶尔还会看到有人穿，可是基本上没有看到有人卖了；二来，政府相应环保概念，很多商场都已经不提供塑胶袋，衣物买了就直接放在你的包里， 要塑胶袋的话好像要另外花钱买的。没有变的是人们买卖还是不标价，就算标价也还可以讨价论价，你能砍多少是多少，每个导购都已经是心里专家，每个价钱都是随便开。

可能因为北京人方向感超强，商场里的平面图都是乱七八糟，每每进出我就出不来，而且也搞不清楚到底那些店已经逛了，那些店还没有逛过。我每次都是走着走着才发觉，咿，这排店好像逛了几遍，当然也没有办法识别那些角落是我从来没有逛到的。夏天逛街应该是最为合适的，可是夏天大家都是穿T恤短裤，到了两个国家都没有买到什么好东西，不想在冬天shopping，看到什么都想买（虽然马来全年都是三十度高温）。

逛了半个上午，找到街边随便一个小摊点了一碗面，面拿到手里就走到旁边的小巷找了一个小凳子坐下来吃，没有桌子，就一手端着碗，一手拿筷子来吃。这应该是我吃过最辛苦的一餐了吧，可是味道应该也是最地道的北京小吃吧。本来想拿出相机找个相，却又不想被别人看到我如此狼狈的模样，所以就放弃了这个念头。

当天买了3套裙子，2双鞋子，加起来不到100块钱（人民币哟），当然不是什么名牌货，也不是什么好东西，就是很多批发商的断尾货，卖不出去，没有尺码可选，所以特别便宜。反正穿过几次不喜欢就可以给别人，总比几百块钱买件衣物穿了十年还不烂，又不舍得给别人，又不想再穿了，挂在衣柜占位子，何必呢。。

同一个世界 同一个梦想 （第五序： 同居篇)

已经十天没有抽出任何时间写日志，主要上周实在太忙，忙得把所有想要写的事情的心情都忘了，今天我想和大家分享一下我在北京和同事门同居的喜怒哀乐。我们一伙十多人入住一家五星级渡假村的别墅，说是别墅，我住的应该是佣人房吧，两个小小的床位，放了两个大大的行李箱，基本就没有落脚的地方了。

每天上午九点准时就会有人在大厅里大声说话，根本用不着闹钟，梳洗完毕，吃完早饭，大家就在客厅里两张圆桌办公。在这里集中办公有一个好处就是从房间走出来不用十步就到了，正因为这个原因，三更半夜如会有人大喊你的名字，你就要从被子里爬出来干活，前几天就试过我在洗澡，主管也冲进房间里找我（洗手间门是锁住的），一点私隐也没有。

昨天终于体验到这个酒店的设施，下午闲来没事去了公司给客户准备的太太学堂学习中国结，叫做四平八稳。中国结这玩意看起来就那个两根绳子左转右转，一学起来发觉原来还是要有技巧、有耐心、，条条有序的才能做好一个结。而且做好以后非常有成就感，好像有一点不相信这个结是自己编的。实际上就是跟着老师一步一步做的，现在已经忘了什么步骤来的。

晚上吃过晚饭，在广阔的高尔夫球场散步，看着碧水蓝天，幻想着自己在这里渡假，无忧无虑的感觉真的好舒服，好愉快（虽然三秒钟以内我就回到现实）。这个酒店还有天然温泉池，各种各类，室内室外都有。我们几个女人帮，换上泳衣就冲着土耳其鱼疗跑去；分别有大鱼池和小鱼池，全身浸在水里任由鱼儿在我们身上叮，麻麻刺刺的感觉，尤其近距离看到大鱼吃你身上的死皮感觉还很那个的。。

还有一个比较特别的叫皇帝盐浴，就是自己那个铲子给自己挖一个洞，让服务员把自己埋在洞里，低下的盐是有一定的热度，整个人被活埋在里边，只露出一个脸蛋，不消三分钟，全身就湿透，这样每天埋个七八分钟，月底我回来的时候肯定会瘦（免费瘦身多好，嘿嘿），还有什么排毒温泉，滋阴强身，咖啡减肥我都没有去过呢，要好好分配时间。

唯一一个美中不足的就是在这个月里我见识在某些民族的生活方式的确和我想象的文民生活有点出入。我和室友怎么说也同居了几个星期，可是我看到她洗衣服的次数好像就一周一次或两次，每次只洗一套衣服，内在美也一样，还说我每天洗对衣物不好容易坏，牛仔裤基本上可以穿一个月也不洗。本来我的衣服和她的一起挂在同一个衣柜，现在我都偷偷把衣物往行李箱堆了。。

同一个世界 同一个梦想 （第四序：吃饭篇）

刚刚一个朋友问我在北京生活怎么样？我让他去阅读我的日志，他又问北京真的有那么差么？到时候全世界人民都涌进来这个小小北京能够承受得了么？坦白说我不知道，反正我的酒店还是冰箱一样，脑根都已经零下十度，很难再去操心这些事。

在我今天和大家分享北京五脏庙大全之前，我还是要批评一下这个所谓的五星级酒店，早餐费每天每人100人民币无所谓，洗衣费一件连衣裙100人民币也无所谓，房间电视竟然一个英文电台也没有，就连一个中文版的国家地理，探险奇遇也没有。我不是老外也快要闷死，所以那么多时间写日志，嘿嘿。

除了到达北京第一天早餐自己解决以外，这里每天三餐都几乎有人请吃饭。看来中国企业文化还是走不开吃吃喝喝，而且我们全球同事难得聚在一起，每个地区部大头轮流请吃一个星期七天都不够。最可惜的是很多饭馆照片我都没有拍到（同事之中只有我一个是外国人，每次兴奋的举起相机想拍照就会被大伙儿阻止，说我别像个大乡里出城，坏他们面子）。好郁闷啊。。

首先我们到了一家提供川菜和粤菜的“姜寨渔乡”吃饭，它的店面设计风格独特，一层以姜寨风情装饰，古朴精致、蜀风浓郁；二层每间小包房以福、禄、喜等吉祥字眼开头、独具匠心；三层豪华奢侈，每个包房按照扑克牌顺序展开、主题鲜明。在这里吃饭就好像在不同朋友家里吃饭：一层是乡下的建筑工人，二层是白领上班族，三层是经济暴发户，中国人吃饭真有心思啊。

隔天我们去了“海底捞火锅”，这家店出名人多，一般去到还要那牌子排队，至少半个小时。当天我们分批打车出发，我一进去，看到一堆人挤在一张小圆桌，在我以为我们10多浩人要分开坐的时候，我看到大家桌上都有不同的消遣活动，有围棋，扑克牌，还提供茶水小吃，原来这只是个等候区啊。同事说有些店还提供“免费”美甲、擦鞋服务呢，太夸张了吧。

终于等到我们入座，服务生为每个人送上围裙和热毛巾，长发女生提供皮筋、携带手机的提供手机套防油溅。我们每人点了一杯任喝的黑豆浆（不好喝，中国豆浆没加糖，何况是黑豆浆）。这里如果你点来面还有专人在你面前即场表演，不是一般的拉面师傅，而是年轻小伙跳街舞般的演出，非常逗。

在这里我生平第一次看到鸭血（之前电视节目看得多），看着同事把血淋淋的鸭血倒进锅里面，我已经起疙瘩，他们还要忍耐不住不断捞起来用筷子穿破外层看看是否煮熟，不熟的话就会想照片里一团血穿了出来，好恐怖。可是所有同事都说这是全场最好吃的食物，食完还加点另外一盘。我后来尝了一下味道，觉得还可以，可是一想到那是血，我就想要晕倒。

昨天又去见识了另外一家湖南餐馆“菜香根”，这家店看起来还是很正常的，翻开菜单一看，又差点像晕过去（受不起刺激）。这里有的都是鲍参翅肚、佛跳墙、生鱼、鱼翅捞饭等等，还好另外有一套餐牌是吃正常人的菜系，要不然我们请的这餐饭可就很难报销了。这里又尝试了另外一个新食物，就是其中一样菜我觉得特别好吃，虽然不知道是什么玩意，反正大家吃得津津有味应该不会有什么大不了，觉果一问原来是猪的肥脸颊。

受了一星期的惊吓，今天我终于在酒店吃充满马来西亚味道的即食面，感觉实在太好了。。

同一个世界 同一个梦想 （第三序：交通篇）

每天早上起床打开窗帘一开，都以为自己眼睛近视度又增加了，街道上都是一片模糊，北京这城市空气污染指数实在太高了。虽然我们酒店就靠在某条高速，四周也没有什么高楼顶住视野，可是可见度真的就不过那两百米左右吧。。

为了减轻城市空气污染，中央政府已经强制性设了许多交通管理。第一次听到单双号这个说法的时候还真的摸不着头脑。原来北京交管局为了解决城市中心奥运期间交通阻塞问题，从7月20号考试实行单双号汽车限行条例：

－如果汽车牌号的尾号是单号，则可以在单号日期（例：1，3，5，7...29，31号）行驶 ；－如果汽车牌号的尾号是双号，则可以在双号日期（例：2，4，6，8...28，30号）行驶。

举个例子，如果你们在今天7月13号（单号）架个2468 的车牌进入市区，被交警发现的话即被当场处以100元罚款。除此以外，许多主要干线都设置了奥林匹克专用车道，没有通行权的车辆已经不能进入。估计当天接我的司机就是误闯这些车道，难怪他就唠唠叨叨了整个晚上。

今天上网看看世界新闻的时候发现政府可能又增加紧急措施来补救空气污染指数，好像什么环境保护局说如果这两天以内空气指数还是低于极度令人不快的天气状况，更多的汽车不允许进入市区，另外200多间工厂也在被令停工。

前几天从酒店搭地铁到去吃老北京炸酱面，原来现在地铁只要买一个2元的票，就可以没有限制乘搭到同一路线任何站下。（我很奇怪我去过的每个国家地铁空调都很冷，除了马来；真的搞不明白，而且听同事说每个国家政府经营地铁都要自己讨钱补贴，回馈社会，方便人民，为什么就有马来同样赔了钱，为什么价格那么贵，路线那么差）。

出来站口以后过马路，发觉北京人民没有改变的就是自行车还是那么多，路人过马路还是不看交通灯，驾车人士也不看交通灯，路上又有一堆的交通管理员，穿者马路安全T恤维持交通。大城市里每条马路都是4条通道，过个马路还真不容易。。

同一个世界 同一个梦想 （第二序：酒店篇）

好不容易到了酒店，在大堂check in的时候，看了看房价，一个晚上两千三百人民币。哇，公司这次真的是花重本钱，竟然在市中心给我们定了一家那么好的五星级酒店。酒店入住时候前台拿了我的护照扫描登记，要刷信用卡的时候才说这个好像不是我的房间，没有我的预定记录。我用我的同房名字找了一下，马上就找到，结果我就先用她的名字住了进去。

一从电梯出来，这走廊怎么那么阴沉，灯光是开着，可是却暗的连房间号都看不着，难怪服务生从我下的士拖着行李一直跟在我后面。如果我一个人上来的话，肯定找不着房间。到了房门口，门卡竟然用不着。他匆匆忙忙又下到大堂给我还一张卡，这时候我一个人站在门口感觉还是挺害怕的，幸亏隔壁房间开着电视音像让我感觉到有一点人气。我左望右望一直在寻找光线最好的地方，就是我门口的紧急出口。

一打开房门，哇塞，两张大床（总比上一个展会两个人挤一张双人床好），一个办公座、咖啡座、超大平面电视，透明浴室（玻璃间隔），大大个浴缸，刚好可以看到房间的电视，还可以从洗手间调整电视声量，够先进了吧。。

梳洗完毕，打算好好睡个好觉，看看时间已经凌晨3点钟。不行，明天一定要谁到12点以后才起床，趁领导们没到先好好歇一下，不然后面肯定没有好日子过了。奥运的事已经从去年开始每天都在烦我，现在看到倒数11天，心里不知有几爽，哈哈。

结果第二天一早七八点，服务生不断不断的排我的门，所要收拾房间。我在想酒店难不成看到客户睡觉都非收拾房间不可么？钥匙大不开房门很明显里头就是有人在睡觉不是么?我实在太累了，任他们一次又一次拍打房门我就是不愿意起床。

九点钟我被冷气冻醒了，昨晚明明已经调到24度，不可能那么冷啊。起床一看才20度？怎么会这样?我不听的按钮，试了又试，按了又按，结果还是回到20度。我赶紧用浴袍把自己包了起来，打电话给酒店让他们来看看。结果来了一个人，他也不知道怎么调，来了第二人说这个系统是全自动化的，会根据房间温度自行调整，如果我觉得冷，可以把温度调到28度，然后让他慢慢上升，一会就不凉了。

结果我等了一个小时，房间温度还是20度，我办公座又正正对这冷气出口，根本就觉得自己来到冬天的北京（最算冬天室内也不会冷的）。我又打电话给前台告诉他们我快冻死了，这次竟然没有人理我，这现在写这个部落格的时候，全身已经在发抖，恨不得把窗口打开。。

哦，还有一个事没有说到。我们住的酒店说就说在市中心，结果我住在九楼，一早就可以听到车辆穿梭的声音，感觉和一般露宿街头的流浪汉听到的应该差不多。要命的是旁边还有建筑工程在进行，想开个窗口解解房间里的冷气也不行。

虽然我到达北京不到12个小时，我已经有一肚子的不满，可能是我之前期望太高，也可能是刚从日本过来，落差太远瞬时间接受不了。真的希望明天会更好。。

同一个世界 同一个梦想 （第一序：司机篇）

经常看到报章上写着中国为了迎接奥运的来临而做了许多准备，提升服务态度，加强卫生环境。 之前很多游客都抱怨中国厕所环境不卫生，而且就算大城市里有着自动冲水系统的洗手间竟然还是没有门（我亲自体会过）搞到现在还被列为全世界最多厕所的城市。

在中国航空飞机上看着他们的名报，描述北京机场种种新措施，新条例，为了就是确保全世界人民来到北京可以有一个好印象，好经验。我心里在想，奥运这次经历更定可以把全中国人民思维更上一层楼，接受先进国家文化的洗礼，从而发展为和我们更相似的境界。

刚下机场，一路上看到的就是赞助商的广告，周边还有很多志愿工作者在机场多个角落，填写表格，寻找出口，咨询查问，当时已经凌晨12点，难得这些志愿者还为国家效劳，估计他们应该是二十四小时值班，真的值得敬佩。

过完海关拿完行李出到门票打车的时候，我真的下了一大跳，三更半夜原来刚下飞机的人有那么多啊，这队伍至少有五六十人左右，要等多久啊。而且在外边也没有空调，北京天气又热，还好身上带了扇子，等呀等呀，好像等了半个小时终于轮到我

一上车告诉司机酒店地点，司机反问我说您去过么？您知道地方么？我愣了一下？现在谁是司机啊，我知道地方不如我来驾驶。还好我身上带了酒店电话号码，司机打了电话，问了方向，好像还是很不清楚。而且还走错路，什么高速达到不允许通车，他闯进去以后又U转，然后开始又对讲机和同事说个没完没了，简直是当我透明。。

哦，还有这个出租车有没有开空调的，司机说天气那么好，不要浪费资源，结果半夜十二点我吹了半个小时的冷风。。还要听司机和其他司机对话，说今天中午吃了一斤水胶，结果现在肚子饿得很，可能晚点还在多载一轮客户等等等等。我实在听得不耐烦的时候，从包里拿出照相机，打算把这个精彩片段录下来，上载youtube 公告天下北京司机的德性，

后来司机好像发现了我在录影，马上就收声，乖乖的驾车。快要到酒店的时候，又给酒店打了电话，问怎么拐进去，酒店说了个什么餐馆的名字，司机让我帮他记一下，回头提醒他。结果到了以后，他又走过头，还怪我说看到了怎么不告诉他。结果他胆子包天从一个单行车道倒退进去，这种不遵守交通规则的司机，我真的第一次看。

外婆的记忆。。

已经记不清楚上一次看见外婆是什么时候，印象中的外婆就像妈妈说说的“哎哟，我们外婆身体真的很壮，八十多岁还能自己照顾自己，一大清早骑着脚踏车到处走，每件衣物还是自己手洗。”大嫂在旁插了一句“是呀，有时候我们去探访她，她老远就看得出我们，视力比我们这些没有戴眼镜的年轻人还好。”

好像是去年某个晚上，妈妈把外婆邀请过来吃饭，外婆一进门口，我低声喊了一声“外婆”。深怕外婆太久没有见到我而把我给忘了（都怪自己在外边漂泊多年，很久没有回家看妈妈，何况是妈妈的妈妈）。怎知外婆看了一眼就说“你是谁谁的小女儿嘛，我知道。”最后一次看见外婆就是那次，没有多聊，只打了一个招呼。一向来和家人的关系都是淡如开水，没有亲密和拥抱，也没有激动的争执，是我觉到最有安全感的距离。

后来好像听说外婆在家滑到，虽然没有大碍，可是健康大不如前。老人家最避忌就是跌倒划到，大家听到都会做好凶多吉少的心里准备。我由于经常出国公干，回到家里都是超级疲惫或者超级想出去释放自己，轻松一下，很少会想到要去看看外婆。只是有时候脑子里会闪过如果我不去看看外婆，会不会这辈子都见不到她？到时候我应该会责怪自己这个无情无义的家伙吧。

刚才妈妈让我载她到外婆家，一进门口，我就几乎被吓呆了。外婆竟然已经瘦的像个皮包骨，脸部两颊已经凹凸的实在不行，手指间不断的在颤抖，脚跟有点浮肿。我低声再叫了一声“外婆”。妈妈在旁说“这是我的小女儿，你还记得她吗？”外婆口里哩咕了几个字，谁也听不懂意思，估计她已经在记忆中找不到我的记录。

整个晚上外婆就是不断的吵嚷“我要去便便。”佣人扶着她刚从房间出来，还没把屁股坐在椅子上，她又说“我要便便。”无论旁人怎么劝说，她就是觉得“我要便便，不能再忍，我要便便。”看着外婆颤抖的身子，一步一步走向房间，我心里突然好像哭，好像上前去拥抱这个记忆中身体很壮的外婆。

同时我也在想，有一天我会不会也变成外婆这样？现在距离外婆九十三岁的高龄还有六十多年。这些年的日子我应该为五斗米而折腰，免得老来以后有钱也买不到健康？或者我应该不择手段往企业阶梯上爬，为老年生活没有亲人照顾买一个保险？还是我应该要开始好好享受人生，免得人又老，钱又没有，有没有体验过生活？还是我应该尽快走入婚姻道路，尽快生小孩，好好培育他们，因为将来公司不要你，老公不要你，人生唯一的寄望就是下一代。

seek ye first

just now something strange happened
i was listening to the cd in my car
"the breath of god"
i was listening
listening
hoping to hear something
just in time for my stressed up mood
as the track goes
one by one
with different preaching
along the highway
i drive fast
some i cant hear it well
i think god has not spoken to me
because i look forward some advise
on how to deal with my life
in work particularly
and out of a sudden
i heard one of the track repeat:
i am sure i heard it just not too long ago
i am sure the track does not come back to repeat the second round
i was stunned
because the journey from klcc
to cheras toke less than 30 minutes
so it should not be repetitive
and even if the cd slipped sometimes
i won't go back to the previous track
and back home i try to find the track
i cannot find
I remember it says
“in everything you do
put god first”
then i realize i was so depressed recently
because i was focus only on myself
annie me and myself
i have forgotten about god
i have gone astray
and i forgot to u-turn
I remember this song
I heard last week

Seek Ye First
Seek ye first the Kingdom of God
And his righteousness
And all these things shall be added unto you
Allelu, Allelujah
Allelujah, Allelujah, Allelujah, Allelu, Allelujah
Man cannot live by bread alone
But by every wordThat proceeds from the mouth of God
Allelu, Allelujah
Allelujah, Allelujah, Allelujah, Allelu, Allelujah
"I am the way, the truth and the life,"That's what Jesus said."
Nobody comes to the father but by me."
Allelu, Allelujah
Allelujah, Allelujah, Allelujah, Allelu, Allelujah
Ask and it shall be given unto youSeek and ye shall find
Knock and the door shall be opened unto you
Allelu, Allelujah
Allelujah, Allelujah, Allelujah, Allelu, Allelujah

a depressed diary

Why do I have brain but cannot think
Why do I have mouth but cannot speak
Why do I have hands but cannot move
Why do I have legs but cannot run

Why do I have myself
Yet I am not in charge of it

I always thought I have happy family
Until I found they have no been close at all
I always thought I have a good job
Until I am the only one left in office at wee hour
I always thought that I have pleasant look
Until I hate the reflection I see over the mirror

Why do I think only stupid complaints
When I can use it for constructive matters
Why do I speak of the sarcastic mourn
When I can voice out to seek for help
Why do I move with lack of confide
When I can write for a new resume
Why do I run into unsolvable trouble
When I can look for a greener pasture

I always thought I am a cheerful person
Until I found that I am severely emotional
I always thought I am a lucky person
Until I only have days and night of work
I always thought I know a lot of things
Until I show no wisdom in things I do

Why do I love myself
Yet I found so many flaws in it

不可复制的记忆

最近有一则电台广告说“记忆是不能够复制的”，过去的事情就不能够重来。我很羡慕那些善忘的人，好的不好的转个头就忘记了。日子过得逍遥只在，不用为了以前的事耿耿于怀。
常常因为自己记性太好而让身边的人抓狂，已经不止一次两次或三次别人告诉过我的话，别人都已经忘记了，我还一字一句朗诵出来。吵了半天，别人就是不愿意承认这是他们亲口对我说的。。

就好像前几天和Zeb 聊天，说起我们当初是怎么认识的。他硬要说是他热情主动打开话题，因为我在办公事行色实在太匆忙，闲杂人等根本不敢靠近。我却记得是我看他一个新人在茶水间无聊，闲来无事的我装热情和他打招呼。不服气的Zeb还要和我对质我们到底聊了什么课题，但是当我提出当时他戴了什么手表，脱了出来让我试戴的时候。他竟然一点记忆也没有，还要坚持说没有这回事。到底是我自己一直在虚造回忆，还是自己脑袋有问题呢？

上大学的时候，教授说过人的记忆分成短期和长期记忆。举个例子：经常用的生字或知识就会存储在短期记忆，脑根要用的时候采取时间比较短。其他很长时间没有用或学了根本没有用到的就会按时间，事件或者人物逐一归档，时间越长没有取出来翻新就会排在记忆的越尾段。事情过去越久要翻出来回味就越困难，所以人们才会有时间可以冲淡一切的说法存在。

可是我这个有问题的脑袋细胞应该是中了病毒，或者神经程式出了乱子。明明不应该或者不值的怀念的事情就是久久放不下。不是因为我每天临睡前都在整理思绪，不是因为我每天在日子里提醒自己，只是记忆中好像没有长期短期之分，反正发生在N年以前的事情对我来说和昨天发生的感觉是几乎没有分别的。越痛苦、越悲惨的回忆就越深刻，时间没有冲淡任何痕迹。

有时候听到某些歌曲，我就会想到某年某月的某一天，我和某某在某某地方一起听着这首歌，当时是什么时间，什么心情，周边环境有那些人，听完这首歌发生什么事我都记得一清二楚。有时候甚至闻到某种香味，我会记得某一人曾经很喜欢擦某个牌子的香水，什么时候她经常经过我身旁，什么时候她靠的我最近，什么时候她穿的什么样的衣服。有时候来到某年某月的某一天，我会突然想起另一年另一月的另一天，我在这个特别的日子做了什么特别的坏事好事傻事，结果来到今年今月的今天我还是傻呼呼的在写部落格。

I hate my girlfriend

I have this little girlfriend
She likes to act like princess
I have to give her tender loving care
All the time, every single seconds in my life

I met her in her darkness day
Where she has no one left to rely on
I become her knight in the shining armor
To protect her from the world full of depravation

I like her bubbly and cheerful manner
The way she laughs on all that I tell her
I was amazed when she met with a car accident
And still drive her crooked car for her dance lesson

She weeps in tears when I told her I love her
She waits for me to come home when I was away
She made her first cross stitch for my Christmas present
She even check put baking lesson to make cheese cake for my birthday

But the veil of the happiness was revealed
Now I see her true colour under the fake laughters
She is just a green monster in disguise in a fairy outfit
She is just an icon of emotion outburst every 20 seconds

She could not make up her mind over everything
She could not live up her life for her own purpose
She always thirst for my attention like a hungry serpent
She always put me to blame whether or not it’s my fault

I can’t take it anymore
I do not want to be a servant
I do not want to marry a chaotic lass
I want to live my life the way I want it to be

But I do not know how to say it
I do not know how I will break her heart
I wish I know how to break the spell
And make her the little girl that I always love

1, 2, 3 wake up or break up

Tiffany think she has spent enough time on Marco to find that they are not meant for each other. It is not a fight that they had, but they never had a fight through out the realtionship. Marco is the type of man that rarely lose his temper, whatever comes to him, he will talk to Tifanny nicely and sort thing out for he has never raise his voice to her. But to Tiffany, she just can not take it when she is ferociously angry and Marco still remians his calm and try to cool her down. In three attempts if she does not let go, he will give up and go back to his own work for he thinks that he has done his part and it’s up to Tiffany whether she wants to take it.

Tiffany feels that she is nobody whenever Marco did this to her. She wants a boyfriend that cares about her feeling and not just finish doing his part leave her alone. It is good that Marco allow her some time to cool down whenever she throws her tantrums and as the temperature cool off, the nerves get relaxed and the mind is cleared, chances are she realize that there is in fact nothing important that she was upset about. It could probably be a over board joke or a insensitive gestures or just a unpolite staring that Tiffany is not happy about. But she just hates it when Marco shows his indifference to her that life goes on whether or not you are happy with him.

Take this example, Tiffany has this afternoon noon routine every weekend. She will display various “ low level of energy” symptoms very afternoon on Saturday and Sunday for her body will switch to sleeping mode when the sun rise on top of her. She will have no appetite to eat, no strength to walk and no mood to talk, all she wants to do is just sleep and everything will be better after that.

Today, as usual Tifanny took her afternoon nap and Marco was busy online to read the football news. Being a light sleeper, she was not comfortable when Marco was shaking his leg on the bed, she was also not comfortable when the newly installed air cond made her sweat under the 18 degree temperature and when she finally dose off into deep sleep, Marco wake her up in a gentle matter and said it’s time to leave for football.

Waking up on the wrong side of bed, Tiffany was very agitated and annoyed, she feels like she has to live her life in accordance with Marco’s phase. When he is busy with his own movie, album, football etc, she has to find her own entertainment. But when he is free to talk to her, she has to stopped everthing that she is doing and listen to him. With a sour face and twisted mood, Tifanny packed her bag and get to her car.

Unaware of his wrong doing (or was he just being so unattentive), Marco wanted to kiss her goodbye, and Tifanny turn her face away. On the second attempt, Marco said don’t be like that and Tiffany turn her face away. On the third attempt, Marco said I’m sorry and Tiffany turn her face away still. So Marco closed the door and walked back to the house leaving Tiffany alone.

I don’t want a boyfriend..

It is now left 96 hours before I reach the age of 29, it’s a common question people around me ask “ when are you getting married?” or “ when is your turn?” on friends’ wedding dinner or even “ aren’t you worry if nobody marries you?”. Well, it’s a lie if I tell you I am not looking forward to meet my prince charming or my knight in the white horse or I’m not worry that I will live a single life forever. But what is it that I must get married, because everybody is doing so, or because everybody is doing so that I will have no more friends to hang out with or because I just need a husband no matter what.

I once discuss with Gloria, a friend that is my same age about how are we to survive without a boyfriend. Gloria proclaimed that she look forward a marriage as soon as possible, not because she feels lonely or she need some man to protect her, but it is the biological clock that is pressuring her to get a husband. True love can be found at any age, even when you are on your dying bed, but the fertility of a woman passes without you noticing you and once the clock stop clicking. Voila, you can’t bear children anymore. And I subscribe to the idea that no family is complete without a kid or two.

Gloria is a very domineering career women, she knows her business very well. In her scope of work, nobody can pick any mistakes made by her and nobody dares to challenge her in any extent. Normally people will just ring her department up and request for things to get done without saying thank you, but when it comes to her, people will actually have to lower their voice and politely ask “ Gloria, sorry to trouble you, but could you help me to do so and so?” in a shivering tone.

Hence, many men were intimidated by her, not to say to court her but even to be her friends alone. In a dining table, she does all the talking, the commenting, the teasing and the joking. Man comes into no use in front of her. Now you may think she is for sure not pretty that’s why nobody is attracted to her. She is petite, fair, have bright round eyes and she will shower you with tender loving care once you step into her “ fort of social distance”.

She once told me “We are not the leftover my dear, we are just too good that no man dares to approach us for they are not confident to handle us, they want woman that is easy to handle to fulfill their egoistic nature, and they want submissive woman that they can boss around so that they can be the head of the family. And one day I am sure that our Mr Right will knock on our door for only them knows the true values in us and to bring out the best in us” Though it is a little bit boastful ( just a little la), I do hope that one day my prince charming will come and bring me to the wonderland but not the grave of all love.

Stupid thoughts on 1st of June

Well, who does not know today is the 1st of June? What’s the big deal with 1st of June? Or rather what’s wrong with 1st of June? Every year in the history we have never missed the 1st of June, it is the 152nd day in the Gregorian** calendar, and there are simply 213 days remaining until the end of the year. If we walk down the memory lane, we may come across the following:

In 1958 - Charles de Gaulle brought out of retirement to lead France by decree for six months. 1 June 1968, an Australian actor and singer called Jason Donovan were born. 1 June 1978, FIFA World Cup kicks off in Argentina with a match held in Buenos Aires between cup holder West Germany and Poland. 1 June 1998, an American actor called Darwin Joston had past away.

It’s okay if you do not know who is Charles de Gaulle or Jason Donovan or Darwin Joston, I do not know all of them either, because this people just had nothing to do in our life. And the story I’m going to tell you today also have nothing to do with you. It’s okay if you decided to stop reading, go ahead, you have nothing to lose.

On the 1st of June 2008, I do not what the big thing or small thing is coming up today, but in the tiny universe of mine, it has many significant days in the month of June. 8 June, I will finally complete a course, which I consistently attended at 8:30 Sunday morning for 6 consecutive weeks, 17 June, my company is participating in the biggest event in the Asia Pacific where no milestone in the initial plan has achieved so far, which I continue to have nightmares over it again and gain, 21 June, my best friend ever will dump me and flee away with a another guy by the name of “her legally married husband”, which made me heart broken (I am not lesbian, but she is really my best friend)

Seems like there are so many hick up in this disastrous month of June, but same time last year I started to believe in fantasy, because fantasy sometimes give hopes in life and I hope this fantasy will go on for ever ( though before this I never believed in forever).

P/S: Gregorian calendar is the calendar we are now using; base on astronomical year numbering, other calendar widely use today includes Lunar calendar and Islamic calendar.

电梯里的陌生男人（2）

好几天没有Michael的消息，Annbell的心情才开始放松，不然每天上下班，出入家门都要小心翼翼观察四周环境，确保没人跟踪或埋伏，才神速下车锁门冲着走。本来想要买的防狼器提防，Jason却说如果真的有什么冬瓜豆腐的话，你认为还来得及从手提袋里搜出防狼器，打开瓶盖，对准坏人，然后开火吗？Charles又说如果你一直把瓶盖打开，拿在手里，抓紧不放，万一刚巧遇到朋友从你背后一拍，哪他不就遭殃了吗？大家七嘴八舌三心两意九不搭八讨论出来结果还是决定放弃这个念头，

就在大家开始松懈下来的时候，Michael又冒冒然的发来一个短信“我从国外回来，有时间坐下来聊几句吗？”Annabell又开始神经质起来，这人当初明明说他已经不是“single and available” 怎么还有这些闲情来做这种事情？如果说他表明意态来追求的话倒还可以接受，一个单身男人为了自己的终身幸福而做出努力是值得敬佩的；可是一个有了女朋友（也可能是老婆）的男人还要那么明目张胆的到处结识女性朋友，难道不怕被人阎了吗？他不怕被阎，Annabell也怕无端端被陌生女人掌刮。

这次Annabell决定不回复短信，一个小时后，另外一个短信又来了“如果我的鲁莽冒犯了你，请接受我的道歉。”Annabell看了有点心软，自己是不是有一点太无人情味？别人只想要认识你，何必搞的那么清高？可是别人如果真的是有什么不良企图，何必让自己去冒这个险呢？可是如果这次我还是不理睬他的话，应该以后都不会再烦我了吧？Annabell这次没有询问大家的意见，自己硬下心肠不回复短信。

怎知道隔天中午，短信又来了“我刚才碰到你了，想和你打招呼，可是却不知如何开口打招呼。”不是吧？这男人真的太无聊了！Annabell又开始觉得人生收到威胁，人生被敌人侵入，未来被黑暗弥蒙的感觉。Michael可能就在她身边经过，而她并未察觉，就算Michael跟着他进电梯，她也无法发现。这次Annabell毫不客气的回复“见到我怎么不光明正大打个招呼，我真的很讨厌你明我暗的感觉，把你的照片发多媒体短信给我！”

照片进来的时候，Annabell几乎傻眼了。这个男人戴黑框眼睛，个子很大，像电影里头未变身前的超人的男人Vicky的有钱男友吗？这个男人在朋友圈子都很有名气的，他豪爽的给女友一辆宝马代步，人人都在猜他到底是那家太子爷，还是那个臭老头，竟然出手那么阔。Vicky知道自己男友在想办法认识她自己同事吗？Vicky有份参与这个圈套吗？Vicky知道了对付男友还是Annabell？Annabell是否需要提醒Vicky这个男友有点诡异？ 事情好像越来越复杂, Annabell完全不知所措。

How man suffers from PMS

According to the wikipedia, Premenstrual syndrome (PMS) is a collection of physical, psychological, and emotional symptoms related to a woman's menstrual cycle. While most women of child-bearing age have some premenstrual symptoms, women with PMS have symptoms of "sufficient severity to interfere with some aspects of life". Such symptoms are usually predictable and occur regularly during the two weeks prior to menses.

During this period of time, man on the other hand would become the victims of the following symptoms:

• Anxiety


• Aggression


• Depression


• Insomnia


• Joint or muscle pain


• Headache


• Fatigue


• Trouble concentrating


• Extreme tearfulness

Huh? Was there a typo mistake in the previous paragraph? Man would suffer or woman would suffer from “that time of the month again” symptoms? For man out there who has girlfriend or wife would understand, woman are not the only victim suffering from the PMS (some man called it Pre-Monster Stage, which match perfectly well, during this awful period their loving and caring would turn into hatred and wrath of fire ), hence they also become the second hand victim from the above.

Calvin was so frustrated when every month like clockwork, Jennifer come down with a strange collection of symptoms. She becomes extremely irritable, snapping at Calvin many times without the slightest provocation. One second ago, she was just complaining about how life is bored, and the next second she yelled at him and said “I hate you!” Calvin was stoned and wondering erm… what have I done wrong again this time? Is this for not making enough effort to make her life wonderful? Or just for not giving her the full attention she seeks for when she claims that she is now very depressed? He could never understand why Jennifer always trying to make his life difficult using the lousy PMS excuse.

Daniel on the other hand has done a full research on what is PMS and he fully understands that Rachel can’t control her emotions due to the hormone changes in her body. He could even work out the schedule in the calendar, yup, this is about time of the monster release again. Before the tantrum smack on his face, he would comfort Rachel by saying “ yes, I understand why you are sensitive and over emotional, if you feel better just by throwing the temper to me, I will surely bear with it, I want to go through this with you together” It works almost all the time that the fire in Rachel would put off at least half and she begin to gain consciousness again.

In the British court room, PMS has been widely used as a legal defense for crime since 1980s. Owen, an arsonist whose did the crime during PMS was free given expert opinion, Reynolds, who murdered her mother when suffering PMS and postnatal depression, was freed on appeal. A girl even ran her car into the boyfriend an killed him after a row with her boyfriend, the murder charge was reduced to manslaughter after the doctor testified that her blood sugar had fallen, causing a surge of adrenaline due to severe PMS and not eaten for nine hours.

So man why risk your life when PMS is a temporary condition and it will pass with time. Your girlfriend will likely be back to her normal self within a few days. Just have some patience, If she wants to be by herself, give her some space. If she wants to be with you a lot and is acting clingy, make sure that you are around for her. If she wants to talk, lend her an ear. If she seems like she wants a hug or a kiss, kindly oblige. Let her dictate the relationship during this time.

现代版童话故事

Debbie和Adrian结婚了，在附近一个小镇举行婚礼。身边朋友都为他们感到高兴，虽然其中掺杂着有点不敢相信他们俩结婚的事实。他们的故事就好像现代版童话故事，公主和王子在某某舞会一见锺情，王子在舞会后表达爱意，公主缅甸的点头答应，从此，王子和公主就过着幸福快乐的生活。。

故事大概在一年前开始，Debbie经常在网上结识朋友，她总幻想自己有一天会碰到骑着白马的王子会带她进入神奇的童话故事。几乎每个礼拜都会有一次“新朋友见面”的约会。 有一次Madelyn八卦问她，你们都在那里见面？是不是人潮很多的地方？见面时候有没有带防狼器？有没有注意他有没有跟踪你回家等等。。

结果Debbie瞪大眼睛看着她“朋友见面还要顾忌那么多的吗？我真的没有想过喔”Madelyn几乎当堂昏倒地上。现在社会新闻那么多，每天都有少女被拐，网友被骗的报道，难道Debbie都从来没有看过报纸？小孩子都知道不可以随便和陌生人说话的道理呀。

后来有一次Debbie约会回来以后向大家报告，我终于找到我的白马王子,我从来没有遇过任何一个人向他这么温柔体贴，我觉得他就是我想要嫁的男人。。Candice和Madelyn七嘴八舌苦口婆心劝告Debbie不要妄下定论，才第一次见面，骗子也不会自招告诉你他是骗子啦。

Debbie和Adrian拍拖不久就开始谈婚论嫁，搞到身边朋友要动员召开紧急会议，看看怎么说服她不要一时冲动，不要被爱情冲昏了脑袋。结果他们还是排除万难，从最初的公告天下到双方家长会面到排期注册，证明给全世界看他们不是闹着玩，不是搞激情，而是人生之中寻寻觅觅终于找到携手共老的对象。

在几次朋友聚会Debbie和Adrian都表现的超级恩爱，从头到尾就在卿卿我我，旁人看到都忍不住想把他们俩硬扯开，好让大家眼睛好过一点。从Debbie口中透露Adrian好像还真的是服侍周到，成熟稳重的好男人。这么一来大家心里都踏实很多，在这里要预先恭祝Debbie和Adrian有情人终成眷属，希望他们白头偕老，子孙满堂。（好老套哟，无所谓啦，这样才和他们匹配到他们的童话故事意境嘛）

电梯里的陌生男人

Annabell 今天吃完午饭，无聊起来打算在购物商场好好逛一逛，心里暗想每天饭后步行三十分钟，应该可以把自己还未被发现的小肚腩给去掉。好久没有好好为自己添个鞋子，裤子，裙子，反正女人花钱就是因为衣橱里永远少了一件衣服，不需要其他原因。

在Bodyshop门口盘算着这家店甚么时候打折时，手机短信响了一下，是一个陌生号码 “Annabell， 我曾经几次碰见过你，很想有机会认识你， 不知道我有没有这个荣幸？我也在某某楼办公， Michael”Annabell脑子里第一个反应就联系到电台每天上午的胡闹恶作剧电话，装成什么神秘人物特地把人家搞的超级丢脸，听众最喜欢听到别人的丑事。

可是，电台恶作剧应该是直接打电话啊？怎么会发短信呢？好像不太可能喔。咿，会不会是办公事哪个烂人想开她玩笑？或者有人真的想认识她，会不会是最近经常在茶水间碰到的那个新人？会不会是之前会议期间聊过但有忘了自我介绍的同事？唉，反正这个人那么明目张胆的拿到我电话，肯定就是办公事内搞的鬼。

Annabell挑皮的回了一句“既然你可以把我的电话拿到，要你当天找我打个招呼应该也不难。你在我面前重覆这句话，我们就可以成为朋友啦”心里在暗爽，笨蛋，我只要回办公事通讯录一查，你的身份马上就穿帮了。还要绕一个打圈来认识我吗？怎么不好好在见面的时候来个自我介绍呢？等我找到你的位子，当面质问你真的那么想认识我吗？哈哈，丢脸死了。

回到座位上的Annabell正在烦恼怎么没找到这个人的信息呢？电话响了。“喂，你好！”“喂，我是Michael。。”天呀，他竟然打电话来了。这人好无聊，办公事那么近也不走过来打个招呼。 谈话期间发觉事情好像越来越不对劲。这个Michael不是Annabell的同事，他只在同一栋楼的电梯里碰见过她，而且可以神通八大的查到她的电话，工作地点。

电话挂下以后，Annabell才时觉到实情的严重性，会不会是什么心里变态？连环杀手？惨啦，惨啦，怎么办？怎么办？太可怕了。。这个故事是不是教训我们不到理睬陌生人的短信，多少无知少女就是这样被骗，可是自己左看右看前看后看都不想无知少女。。Annabell的故事，下周揭晓（待续）。

会过期的调味剂

刚才Catherine 走到楼下的时候，看到天空下着毛毛细雨，突然间眼前看到的好像电影情节一样，镜头一转就会到30年前。。还记得有一次天空也是下着毛毛细雨，她和Eason在楼下困着，雨点一小点一小点撇在她身上，Eason用他自己的身躯把娇小的Catherine给包围着，不让雨点沾溼她的身体。

Catherine当时候的感觉就好像反正天空真的要塌下来她也不害怕，因为不管风大雨大都有Eason在她身边保护着她。。就是这种感觉，让她坠落在世界的最底处，因为Eason终于在两年前离开了她，为另外一个女子挡风挡雨去。。

分手并不是一件容易的事，到现在Catherine都不太愿意提起这件事，就算别人诅咒Eason不会有什么好下场的话，她也不愿意听，因为她深信他和Shirley是真心相爱的。就算她这一辈子找不到更爱她的男人，她也祈求他们俩会白头偕老。爱，总比恨一个人来的容易。

Man最近好像也没有什么动态，因为有一次午饭的时候， Catherine很明显的回避Man不和他同桌吃饭。可能Man也感觉到Catherine的不自在，不敢在进一步调查下去，也可能Man认为原来Catherine不值得跟踪，反正她现在已经有了要好的男朋友，没有什么新闻价值可以会去写小报告。

很多朋友都在说Catherine还很依恋从前Eason给她的那种幸福感觉而忽视了身边对她好的男人。幸福真的只是一种感觉吗？幸福就在感觉的基础上建立吗？幸福可以是一辈子吗？女人，往往就是沉醉在自己的梦想世界，忘了生活还需要柴油米饭盐，好的男人不应该只能给你幸福的感觉，好的男人应该给你一辈子的幸福，感觉只是一个会过期的调味剂。

so much time, so little plan..

Do you know what’s your plan tonight? Well, I am not asking you for a date, but I am keen to know if you plan you time in advance? And how much in advanced? The other day I was talking to Rachel saying some of our friends are just so into play by ear, goes with the flow, for they do not like to be constrained by plan made ahead of their time. Rachel smile and said “ That’s only applied to young chaps, for they always think time will never ran out of use”

Erm.. I am not sure about that. Since young I always plan my time, from primary school
having a check book on the daily home work, secondary school having a schedule on the exam revision plan, working life having a diary of all the events through out the years, I just can’t live without a reminder beside me. Even at home I have a notepad near my bedside, just in case I suddenly have things to do the next morning. I couls hardly sleep without knowing what’s the plan for at least tomorrow, if not the few days that follows.

I do not feel secure without knowing what’s coming up next, I can not sleep without knowing exactly what’s the itinerary over the weekend. And I hate it when people just come up with brilliiant ideas like “Why not we do this and that later today or tomorrow morning” Unless it is a superb idea that will turn my world around, these questions are normally met with “ Why can’t you tell me earlier?” I just hate it when somebody screwed up my plan, whether or not I have a plan at all.

Is there anything wrong with me? What part of the brain progrmming is faulty? Some may think I am putting too much pressure on myself to plan for this plan for that, life is no fun when everything is well planned off. Why can’t we “JUST DO IT” like Nike says it. Well, I do not know who can asnwer that, but I don’t see how I can do it for now. Can anyone help?