It could have been worse (part 2)

第二天我请了一天Emergency Leave， 陪泽去办理IC， License等手续，他又没有手机在身，又不懂地方，还是有个人一起比较方便。由于前一天回到家已经1点钟，我们早上8点多才起床，也是逼着起来给变态主管请假，给变态HR发邮件，去办公室拿了电脑回家，出发去Putrajaya，昨天警员说得嘛，如果去Putrajaya办replacement IC， 当天就可以拿到，不用等三几个月，所以我们老远跑到Putrajaya去。

到了柜台拿了号码一看，568号，nombor sekarang，你猜一下？237号！还要等三百多个人！！虽然柜台很多，但是三百多个人也，不是开玩笑的，我们观察了5分钟左右，发现号码也不是走的特别快，要等300多人，至少要等两三个小时，加上当天星期五sembahyang，不知道什么时候才会轮到我们啊。。

本来我们想说先去JPJ办license，怎么知道在Putrajaya转了一个大圈，塞了一段路，好不容易到了JPJ，人家说这里只办administrative，没有处理license事务，我的妈啊，那么大的building，那么多人上班，那么多车来往，不办license，这帮人都在干嘛的？这时候我和泽都有点dulan，我们想到回去JPN，至少把IC办好，其他的改天再算。

怎么知道一个小时过去了，nombor sekarang才300多号，就是还有两个小时才轮到我们，而且officer说不是当天可以拿到的，是24小时内可以拿到，也就是说就算今天能轮到你，也要下周才可以回来领取，而且可能同样要等两三百人吧。最可恨的是，明明Putrajaya JPN 是周六周日也有开门的，正好整个星期system upgrade，周末两天不上班。这也够倒霉的吧。

泽已经很生气了，花了一个上午折腾，竟然什么都办不了。这样等下去也不是办法，我们决定回到state去办，可能branch小，人也少一些，IC要等几个月就几个月吧。谁知道到了state，找来找去找不到JPN，好不容易问了人，原来JPN不叫做JPN，JPN在一个Bangunan Persekutuan里面的其中一个部门。好不容易走路走了很远到了JPN，看到大门深锁，Friday sembahyang 啦，要等到2：45pm才开门。

这时候的我们已经快要崩溃了，我们尽最大努力带着疲惫的身体，受罪的心灵，走到附近A&W 吃了世界上最难吃的午餐，走回遥远的JPN，看着手表2：00pm，才有45分钟，我们等！这时候我们看到另外一个女孩也在等着，我们想问她是不是要提前准备照片，她说她也不知道，她是上午10am钟过来领取号码，柜台人员让她下午再过来。。

天啊！人家上午10点钟的都还没有轮到她，我们这还有可能轮到我们吗？泽马上就像泄了气的气球，什么都不想管什么都不想做了，反正今天就是注定一事无成！我们去做license吧，IC就等我下周早上七点半去排队吧。谁知道去到JPJ，counter的人说没有IC什么都不能补办，首先要做IC，否则其他的都不能做。你知道从JPJ到JPN再走回JPJ有多远吗？！？！我们就这样来来回回什么都办不了。

泽说Pastor说得没错“it could have been worse， because the worse is awaiting today！”。我们就像两个白痴浪费了5个小时时间，什么都没有做好，早知道在家大睡更好，又累又热又烦躁，我们差点打起架来了。我们要离开的时候，正是2：40pm，我和泽说“你进去看看counter开了，能拿到什么号码吧。反正人都浪费了5个小时，就差5分钟，进去看看，能等就能，不能等在回家，好不好？”

泽心不甘情不愿的下了车，一个人走到JPN门口，我驾车转一个大圈回到JPN，心里一直在祈祷，很害怕电话一响，泽说还有两百多人，把我臭骂一顿。还要到了JPN电话都没有响，泽说要等30多人，他到对面去买电话卡。虽然周五很多counter没有开，但是这里效率还算很快，三点半就轮到我们，拍了照打了IC sementara 4点钟完成。呼，终于有件事情可以搞定。

我们到JPJ拿了号码，看起来有点玄，但是counter说可以轮到的，我们就坐下来等，license counter就更快了，每一分钟可以条几个号码，终于4点半我们也把license拿到了。泽在facebook了做了一个很假设性的统计：

我不知道这个可参考性有多高，但是身在马来西亚，身在吉隆坡，我真的感到相当不安全。

It could have been worse (part 1)

2012年6月8日，是历史上悲痛的一天，当天是星期三，我的家务值班日，正在家里打扫干净，准备第二天早餐，忽然电话响，是个陌生电话。我的电话本来就很少人打给我，何况是陌生人，而且还是那么晚了，我觉得有点奇怪。“喂？”电话另外一边是泽的声音”Annie, this is an emergency, my wallet, handphone, car key all taken”。天啊，我有点要pitam的感觉，在我的脑子里想像的是被抢劫了，被打了一顿，车子银子全被拿了，不知道把泽丢在那个荒山野岭，怎么办啊！！！！！

原来泽去Lee Chong Wei futsal court踢球，背包被人家偷掉，没有来得及问很多问题，泽紧急让我先打电话block掉所有的信用卡和电话line。Citibank和Alliance的银行customer service number正好我都有存下来，很快就block了，但是stupid public bank 竟然在网上完全找不到customer service number，真的是个非常差的银行，internet banking本来就很差，现在连紧急事故要打电话都不知道打给谁，电话号码在那里可以找到？信用卡后面，不神经病吗？

Digi 也是，说什么help is just one call away，ya right， very de far far away， 等了半天，按了3千个选项，就是找不到有人说话的选项，选到了也没有人接听，我心里真的快急死了，又怕泽一个人在球场里等，又怕匪徒抢了车钥匙，是不是家里钥匙也抢了？那么我呆在家里岂不是也很危险？如果他们把门打开，我要怎么办？突然间电影里所有情节冒出来，让我越想越怕。。

后来忍不住，还是先把车的后备钥匙送到球场，见到泽平安再算。我小心翼翼把门锁好，从家里出发。Lee Chong Wei futsal court在那里我完全不知道，没有去过啊。。还好泽给了简单的direction，这个地方离我们家不远也挺好找的。去到那里，看到泽和两个朋友在车子旁边，人是没事，车还在。原来在他们踢球的时候，有人从futsal court的netting剪开一个洞，伸手进去拿走泽的钱包、手机和车钥匙。

当泽发现背包里的钱包手机不见了，他还以为他的朋友作弄他，直到去到车子看到车门打开了，回到球场还是没有人把钱包手机给回他才知道不是开玩笑，真的被偷了！！虽然futsal court有CCTV，但是security manager正好出去吃饭，也不能查看，有个restaurant的老板好心过来帮忙，给security manager打电话，给把自己电话留给我们说有什么发现会通知我们。

泽的钱包里正好有同事还给他的futsal court的租金，七百多快，加上这几天和客户出去吃饭的receipt还没有报销，现金损失超过一千块。手机虽然不是新的，怎么说也是Iphone。最重要的是车钥匙，真的要谢天谢地当天驾的是小车，小偷打开车门了都没有胃口驾走，如果当天驾的是大车，那就是。。choi！choi！choi！

这还不是事情的开始，接下来我们要做的是去警察局报警。逗逗转转找到Balai Polis Petaling, 排队拿了号码，备了案，还要排队等sergeant问话才可以走。警员让我们去另外一栋楼，上到最楼上，sergeant在那里办公。我们以为哈？那么惨，三更半夜还要在家加班。原来更惨的在后面。。

我们去到另外一个block，找不到楼梯上楼，找到楼梯上楼，看不到梯级爬上去，这里像是被遗弃的旧楼，一个走廊灯都没有。去到顶楼，以前每次从外面看都一位警察叔叔一人一个单位，住的舒舒服服的，原来不是，一个单位还要分成很多小房间，每人就只有一个小房间，后面有个简陋的露台，有个jusco的购物trolley（警察也会顺手牵羊哦，可能不是警察，是警察太太，呵呵）。

终于轮到我们了，一打开门，看到一个像night club bouncer的大汉，粗粗的手链，贴身的黑衬衫，电视播放WWF，电脑播放club mix，开着冷气，抽着口烟，一霎那还不知道是去了警局还是黑社会老大房间。这名IO老大一直说自己是IO，其实我们都不知道什么是IO，他要调查案子，其实就是输入电脑交个差，反正整个报案过程感觉大家比较关注的是电脑里的文字有没有拼错，而不是能不能帮受害者讨回公道。

好笑的是房间里IP旁面还有一个男生站住，不知道是助手还是儿子，我们在诉说事情经过的事情他还插口问了一句，那个futsal court？泽很自然得回答他，IO也没有说什么。后来一看，NND这个男生双手竟然是被扣起来的，IO说他是刚才偷别人手机被抓进来的，还没有录完口供呢。这个人也够力，自己是犯人还要多事八卦别人，真的受不了。

也不知道过了多久，终于录完口供，IO打印出报告给泽签名，证明他已经完成任务，调查结束之类的。但是他拿了restaurant老板的电话，说明天回去调查，看CCTV等。随便吧，反正要找到是谁不容易，找到是谁去抓人更不用想了，警察办案的效力我们心中有数，人没事就好，财物丢了就丢了吧。

回到futsal court已经半夜十二点多，我们还在附近垃圾桶沟渠找看，小偷有没有良心拿来现金丢下钱包什么的。很不幸的，找了一圈都没有，太晚了我们也不敢到处乱跑，收拾心情回家。记得pastor chew刚在上周说过”it could have been worse”,我们也不要太难过。

No, I DO NOT have split personality!

It has occurred more than one time in my life that somebody commented that I have a split personality. As I was having lunch with Zephyr this afternoon, we were talking about a friend whose life is like a fairy tales.

Zephyr said “Oh come on, your relationship with Jon is not too bad either, right?” I said “Yeah, except the part that he thinks I am literally crazy. He is suffering with my split personality”. Zephyr got very excite with the term “Split Personality”. She nodded her head very hard and said “Me too, I also think you have split personality!!!!”

Okay, that makes me worry a little. Do I really have split personality? I remember in university days, there was a friend Jilian who studies psychology, she said “I want to use you as a subject when I do my master thesis.” “Really?” I feel proud for a moment until she said “Yup, I want to study you as you have SPLIT PERSONALITY”#*!%$!.

It was a long time ago and I almost forgotten about it. Jilian was my hang out kaki during university days, we always sneak out from hostel to “Ladies Night” together. When she saw my serious face studying in the library, she could barely recognize me, especially when she found out that I was on the Dean’s List for 6 consecutive semesters. Well, a clubber that study well does not qualifies me for split personality right?

Then come this Zephyr, we always b*tch together in office, she is my best-e-st buddy for heart to heart talk, office gossips, politic issues, health concern etc she is basically my Ms Thelma for everything. Though she knows 80% about my everything, I only know about 20% of her mysterious life (is it called the 80-20 theory?)

And out of no where she comes out with this conclusion that I have split personality, I asked her to elaborate. She said “It’s through my observation” I asked her to quote some example, she said “It’s beyond description”. Although she is a hard core supporter that “Annie has split personality”, I think we can discard her opinion in the case, lol.

For Tzeh, I know why he is suffering because sometimes I will ask him question like “Tzeh, half of myself said I want to go shopping, but the other half said I want to sleep, what should I do?”, “Tzeh, Annie A says you are a good husband and I should treat you nice and Annie B said you are not sensitive at all and I should hate you forever!”

I could be so loving that I kiss him non stop like a play toy and the next moment I am totally disgusted when he even touch my finger tips. I could be so “low battery” that I can barely walk one more centimeter and the moment I see a shoe shop I could literally fly to the shop no one can stop me. Sometimes Tzeh will ask me “So you are now Annie A or Annie B?”

Well, to a certain extend I do think I may have split personality. To further confirm the fact, I asked my best friend Google. Google said “ No, you do not have split personality because..”
1. A person with a split personality, undergoes change in the personality in just a few seconds. He then acts as a completely different person. He starts to imitate behaviourial traits, characteristics, name etc of the person he thinks he is. At times the person undergoes a change where they have alters of sexual orientation, genders, nationalities and ages.

(Yes, I may have changed into another personality in just a few seconds, but I am still myself, same sex, same nationalities, same age, maybe just different passion, different preference and different state of mind. I am not suffering from Split Personality!)

2. The patient looses his memory. He doesn’t remember things happened in his life over a long period of time or between a certain period of time. It so happens that once the patient comes out from the false personality into his normal self, he doesn’t remember what had happened to him.

(No, I did not lose my memory. I remember everything I said whether I am Annie A or Annie B or C or D. When I change from Annie A to B to C and back to A, I remember it was me, just a different part of me. I am not suffering from Split Personality!)

Split personality is a very dangerous disorder, but we just cannot leave the effected person alone. Accusing someone without a split personality to have a split personality is a very dangerous crime, please do not accuse me anymore. Maybe split personality is not the right term, please research further until you tag me with it.

P/S: Feel so relived after writing this self defense blog, yet Zephyr said “I still think u got split personalities anyhow....no need defend”

吃饭

今天吃饭的时候远远看到两个同事，我刻意走到另外一个角落坐下来，原因是我不想参与别人的谈话，有时候我觉得和别人相处是一个很艰难的苦差，所以这几年来我几乎每天都是一个人吃饭。

虽然也有个别的同事是我很期待可以一起吃饭的。可是身为正常人，他们都有各自的makan kaki，只有爽爽或者什么节日才会一起吃饭。

就当我松下一口气准备坐下来的时候，看到对面又有其他同事坐在那里，我竟然马上转头，又换了一张桌子坐下来。突然间感觉自己怎么沦落成过街老鼠，人见人恨吗？做错事吗？为什么？

过去我经常安慰自己说，现在办公室已经没有多少人，而且都是不同部门的同事，我的部门只有我自己一个人在这个办公室，所以没有kaki和我吃饭是情有可原的。

可是，今天在food court看到这里有同事，那里有同事，又不是说不认识，又不是说没有吃过饭，为什么自己变成一个如此不受欢迎的角色呢？不知道在别人眼里是怎么看我？孤僻鬼？自闭症？神秘感？神经病！

原来以前我都趁别人吃饭时间还没到就溜出去吃饭，所以没有碰到过这么多同事。原来以前我不在吃饭时间吃饭就为了不想和打交道，也不用让别人用惊奇的眼光问我“为什么一个人吃饭？”而且更不用在吃饭时间还在讨伦无聊的公事。

可是，为了想晋升为一个正常的“正常人”，我是否要考虑和别人吃饭？怎样？无端端跑去问别人的圈子“请问我可以和你们一起吃饭吗？”好久以前曾经和部门秘书的一群kaki一起吃饭，别人十八岁，pok pok chui的话题我真的一句话都搭不进去啊。。

我有病吗？难道一个人吃饭就不正常吗？

我看到身边很多同事因为工作关系日见夜见，建立起非常深厚的感情，是羡慕啊。以前我那份工作也有很好的朋友，甚至离职以后都是很好的朋友。我也想要啊，可是我现在的工作就是不需要的任何人打交道，不需要和任何人见面，是和我绝配吗？还是害成今时今日的我？

我想，我应该是有病吧。。。

masak-masak （4）

第一次感受到当“师奶”的乐趣，上周泽的妈妈留了很多煮食材料给我们，weekday没有人愿意下厨，所以我在周末的时候做了2菜1汤的晚餐给泽和泽姐姐吃。哇，原来可以为全家人准备晚餐的那种成就感和幸福真的是mou dak ding（无得顶）！

首先我。。哎哟！我第一次解剖一只鸡叻，好恐怖恐怖！那是某某亲戚送给泽妈妈的kampung鸡，所以不想pasar的那种全清洗干净，去完皮的那种。我还要把剩下的鸡毛一条一条拔出来，然后用淘米水浸泡，用姜煮沸去腥，然后。。然后就一刀！大大力的砍不下去。。结果一只好好的鸡，被我碎尸万段。本来应该切成4快的鸡，中间的尾龙骨一直砍不断，变成两块手，两块脚和两段尾龙骨。

哦，还有还有，切好小块，还要去皮，so that鸡汤不会太油。不好意思，搞了一整天忘记告诉你其实我是要炖鸡汤啦。。皮要怎么去掉呢？忘了上网google一下，随便啦，就在哪里切一刀然后把皮连根拔起。太恐怖了，太恐怖了，原来餐桌上美味无穷的鸡汤背后有着那么凄惨动听的故事。让我对鸡突然间有点反感。

好了好了，终于都完成第一步骤，当时是下午2点半，泽问你煮晚餐需要现在就开始准备吗？唉，我也不想啊，准备好了，晚上就很直接很简单了呀。。搞完鸡就把买回来的包装参须鸡汤材料加冷水煮滚，然后才倒进slow cooker慢慢炖。其实也不用那么麻烦，只是internet写如果要鸡汤好喝，这些就是小小的窍门。下一次我不用窍门，看看有没有分别。

另外准备了一道黑椒牛肉粒，把牛肉粒准备好，加入腌料放在冰箱里，晚上只需要拿出来炒，加一道清蒸鳕鱼，就是我们3人的第一个晚餐。泽的弟弟正好生日，在马六甲和爸妈庆祝生日，没有福气欣赏我们的2菜1汤。。还有就是蒸饭，经过多次经验，好像已经掌握到蒸饭的时间，水和米的比例，也比较轻松了。

傍晚六点，泽就吵着肚子饿。我把米拿去蒸炉开大火蒸，准备好鱼，打算饭蒸了10分钟以后放进鳕鱼一起蒸10分钟，加个炒牛肉里，30分钟可以开饭。这个时候泽姐姐说我想要去跑步，很快回来。我又回到房间不耐烦的看着，等着，好期待嘛，第一次做饭给家人吃，我自己爸爸妈妈都还没有有如此待遇呢（想起来还真有点惭愧）。

终于过了15分钟，泽姐姐回来了。我赶紧把鱼放进蒸炉，开始炒牛肉粒，也是用喼汁、酱油、糖、栗粉和水就可以搞定了。其实最近学的都是腌制好就很容易煮的食谱。盛汤，上座，我们的晚餐。。哇，这鸡汤好好喝，好甜喔，心里高兴的不得了。这鱼也蒸到刚刚好，不会太熟，心里又高兴的不得不得了，牛肉还可以，可能洋葱太多有点点酸，不过overall好吃！

充满理性的泽在这个时候又要发挥那个专业技能“这个鸡汤材料多少钱？这只鸡是别人送的，如果自己买要多少钱？这个鳕鱼多少钱？妈妈买的？大概多少钱？这个牛肉多少钱？”算着算着总共40块钱，3个人吃，加上长时间准备，长时间洗碗，嗯，不划算。 超级扫兴！

P/S:
最近泽姐姐没有上班，我把找到的食谱翻译好Email给她，她在家里提早准备腌制，我们现在experiment过苹果瘦肉汤，台湾盐酥鸡和大蒜炒菜，今晚还要继续挑战marmite猪肉面。爽啊，看来我真的爱上了做饭这个游戏。 当初还是sherleen告诉我当人妻以后要好好照顾家人，不要每次都吃外边，不健康，谢谢你启发了我！

masak-masak （3）

昨天第一次在厨房发生意外事故，是的，我的手被烫伤了。昨天心血来潮想要煮什么东东给泽吃，上网看了半天，好！晚上就煮柠檬鸡翼，泽喜欢吃的东东都是deep fry或者什么高难度的台湾面，想要做饭给他吃还真不容易。看看大部分食谱虽然都还简单，但都是要提前腌制2－3小时，我又不想等到明天才煮。完了，最近真的沉迷在masak-masak这个游戏。

我好不容易看到一个材料又简单，时间又短，又不需要腌制的食谱。正在泽的母亲前天买了一堆的柠檬忘了带回去，我就欢天喜地的抄下食谱，详细检查有没有家里没有的材料，这道菜真的非常简单，材料只需要鸡翅，柠檬，蚝油，蜜糖也少许盐，没有啦，简单吧？

我又趁午餐时间跑去Isetan 超市，像傻婆一样，看到每一样菜都异常兴奋，看到每个牛肉都有清楚标注那个部位，什么煮法，根本就是为我而做的嘛。。上周去SS2 菜市场都没有看到有人卖牛肉和羊肉，害我专门又跑去Giant，乱七八糟买了好多东西花了好多钱。在Isetan看到连猪肉也有卖，真的是太爽了，以后可以每天下来买菜，回家煮饭，幸福！

我打算给自己煮饭，泽的姐姐在Pasar Malam随手给我买了西兰花（3颗蔬菜任选才五块），然后再给泽煮一个柠檬鸡翅，应该就Perfect了吧。谁知道Rothman Roundabout这个烂交通圈，让我堵了extra15－20分钟，回到家已经快七点半了。 急急忙忙准备好蒸饭，焖西兰花，用牛油炒草菇装饰，然后开始做我的重头戏－柠檬鸡翅。

一开始用盐把鸡翅洗干净，沥水。哦，还有还有，因为我买的的整个鸡翅，我怕难熟，还费好大力气把鸡中翼折断，切成两块。然后呢，准备所有的材料，开火，热锅，放油。就在我一块一块把鸡翅放进锅里，不知道怎么其中一块鸡翅下锅的时候溅油，把我的左手烫伤，第一次被油烫到，还真的很痛，就那么丁一小点就那么痛，我不能想像那些火灾烧伤的人怎么忍受。我马上跑去洗手间找牙膏来涂，我也不知道对不对，反正直觉告诉我应该就是牙膏啦。

涂完以后，还要硬着头皮，把鸡翅煎完，煎到一半才发觉刚才放的油是8个鸡翼准备的，娘的，我才买了4个鸡翼啊，还好其他的材料都还没有下锅，否则真的不能吃了。好不容易把多于的油重新盛起来，跟进recipe book写的几分钟后下蚝油，转小火，盖锅焖几分钟。

Recipe book写的是焖到收汁就差不多，可是我看怎么越来越多水似的（今天妈妈才告诉我鸡翅是出水的，好奇怪），我也不知道该怎么办了，不可能把汁全捞调吧，再等两分钟？还是一样，不管了，按照最后步骤加入柠檬汁。搞定！把鸡翅用筷子夹起来，热乎乎的送到泽的面前。

泽看了桌上的晚餐说“我吃鸡翅，你吃白饭青菜，也好像太凄惨了吧？”我说“才不凄惨，给你做饭是我的幸福！赶快试试看，能不能吃？”哈哈，看到了没？我关注的不是好不好吃，而是能不能吃，上次的羊排经验太深刻了，还没有恢复过来。泽咬了一口说，可以啊，挺香的。我心里才松了一口气。。

自己试吃，味道还可以，反正有蜜糖的甜味，只是鸡翅好像不够入味，以后还是乖乖腌制比较可靠。第二天醒来，果然手背起了泡。。

masak-masak （2）

接下来要挑战的是Black Pepper Lamb，泽的最爱，反正什么黑椒羊扒，牛扒，鸡扒，猪扒，只要是黑椒的他都超喜欢，尤其是Kenny Roger Roaster 的黑椒汁，每次都会念念不忘。为了满足他的味蕾，我决定到处寻找黑椒秘方，上网找了数千篇文章、部落格，终于找到一些材料比较简单的recipe，其实看来看去都是那一样基本材料，只是不知道什么比例，什么腌制法好吃而已。

周六我们去Pasar Pagi买菜，拿着我小小的笔记本，像寻宝一样，慢慢挑，还要慢慢核对，深怕买漏了什么东西。谁知道SS2这个菜市竟然没有人卖羊肉或者牛肉！我们又不想煮鸡肉或者猪肉，结果逼着又跑到Giant专门去找羊肉。每次到Giant都会很自然买很多零食和其他平时不认为需要买的东西，结果又花了100多块钱，好浪费哦。

我们第一次尝试（是的，我们几乎整个礼拜都在吃黑椒羊排，原因其一是羊排不能放太久，其二就是我们很不爽没有做到好吃的黑椒汁），是跟着某某blogger的秘方，用Worcestershire Sauce（我不知道中文怎么说，香港人叫喼汁，中国人叫辣酱油，是一种调味料，味道酸甜微辣，色泽黑褐，是黑椒汁少不了的调配料，加上瓶装黑椒汁，糖，粗黑椒粉加水。

不好吃！一点都不好吃！感觉上好像直接从Giant买回来已经腌制好的羊排更好吃。可是妈妈说这些通常都是用卖不出，不新鲜的羊肉做成，最好不要买来吃。也忘了做出来是什么味道，反正就是一连印象都没有留下的味道，丁一点满足感都没有。

好了，过两天我们又尝试第二个配方，台湾某某网站里找到的，感觉比较中餐的那种黑椒汁，调配料有蚝油，糖，葱，水，酱油，蒜头和黑椒。最出来的味道还可以，可是黑椒汁感觉就像很干的汁，不想在外面参观可以一大碗一大碗给你添加的稀稀的感觉，而且还有很多乱七八糟的渣，卖相一点都不好看。呵呵

好了，又过了两天（我还没有放弃啊？没有，羊排还没有煮完），我又在一个马来西亚当地blogger的网站找到一个超级简单的秘方，这位aunty的神秘武器就是鲜奶！原来全脂鲜奶可以很神奇得把黑椒汁的味道变得很香，texture变得很美，而且也不需要一大堆其他的配料来陪衬，这个aunty这的救了我一命。加上玉米粉，这个黑椒汁就几乎完美了，只是不知道为什么做出来还是很少，不能一大碗一大碗still。

在这么完美的黑椒汁配合，我把牛排放进锅里煎，小心翼翼的翻动，还用刀叉切开一小块，看是否已经煮熟（我做饭最大的懊恼就是不知道这些东西什么时候熟），好像羊肉都已经变色，应该可以了吧？太熟肉变老就不好吃了，我赶紧叫泽过来开餐，怎么知道他一刀切下去，肉还是鲜红色，一点都不熟，把他吓一条。

他取笑我说通常到餐馆点羊扒，别人会问“先生，请问您要点well done还是medium？”以后如果你要开餐馆的话看来得问““先生，请问您要点cooked还是not cooked？”唉，笨蛋！笨蛋！笨蛋！简直是无脸见人了！！！

P/S：
虽然如此，我还总算学会了做mashed potato, 每次快做好的时候就让泽把马薯泥压扁，加奶油、鲜奶和黑椒，结果他每次都装模作样的说“哟！我也会煮喔”“好好吃喔”晕～

masak-masak （1）

结婚那么久，都没有真正下厨。印象中好像做过一次chicken cordon bleu，而且是佣人实在看不过眼，在旁面帮忙的那种。反正每天回到家里都已经身体力尽，最想在最短时间搞定晚餐，回家休息，往往都是随便打包回家吃。泽因为工作忙碌也没有经常陪我吃饭。

上个月泽出差两周，正好我这阵子因为工作调整也比较闲，想到爽爽自己学做饭。原因是我一个人在家，生活很规律，十点半可以上床，所以给自己煮一顿饭也不算太过麻烦。加上泽不在家，我又不用迁就他到外面吃，自己想吃什么就煮什么。

第一天买了一个西兰花，想说是最容易的了，只要在水里烫熟就可以吃，不可能会失败吧。非常抱歉，我好像这一辈子都没有做过饭，只怪以前在家煮妈妈太好，每顿饭都不用我们帮手。大学的时候还会煮三几道菜给自己吃，而且都是妈妈买好材料，一个一个步骤告诉我怎么做怎么做，我只要机械人般的follow instruction就可以，所以现在完全没有印象。

话说回来，就在我想要煮西兰花的时候，才发觉连我以为最简单的菜式也装满一大门的学文，妈妈说把水煮沸，要家少许盐、糖和油，具体为什么我也不知道。而且千叮万咛说一定要买澳洲的西兰花，中国的西兰花不好吃。

好了好了，我趁午饭时间去Cold Storage买菜，看到澳洲的西兰花，小小一颗五块钱，感觉上价格应该还可以。怎么知道回到办公室刘依玲笑我说怎么那么贵买一颗西兰花？Giant 或Jusco才卖三块钱左右，更不要提pasar pagi了。唉，第一次做饭就被骗，真白痴！我自己安慰自己，有时候convenient 是要付出代价的。。

回到家里兴致勃勃，第一次做饭，正好泽的弟弟煮Spaghetti，剩下一些Mushroom Sauce，我就刚好可以煮意大利面条来配菜。说实在的，我心里还是战战兢兢，很怕煮出来不能吃很丢脸啊（家里没有人就无所谓，家里还有泽的姐姐弟弟两名观众喔）。还好泽的姐姐在旁指点一下，告诉我青菜在水里冒出青色的汁应该就已经煮熟，否则我还傻傻跟着recipe book 计算时间 (是的，我有一本recipe book，都是我手抄的哦)。

嗯，第一次下厨，感觉还是挺好的，自己煮出来的东西，怎么难吃都是幸福的。虽然西兰花是贵了一点，还是绝对值得（以后又煮了几次，感觉就是没有在Cold Storage买的好吃）。后来第二天，好像又煮了葱油豆腐，不好吃，然后又煮了其他什么东西我也忘了，都是一些材料很简单，步骤很简单的菜，虽然不好吃，可是那种成就感啊。。爽！

后来开始想要学煮饭， literally煮饭，因为之前都是学做菜，一个人煮饭好像很麻烦，而且我也不会煮，internet只有叫人家用电饭锅煮饭，或者蒸饭，我一个人真么不知道怎么煮。鼓起勇气跑去问刘依玲，又被嘲笑一番，说我真的很白痴，娇生惯养什么都不懂，反而我觉得她平时左看右看都不像是会做饭的人，突然间正正经经叫我做饭，让我非常崇拜，呵呵。

好了，第一次蒸饭，总算成功了（有可能失败吗？），虽然米明显放太多，水相对的放更多，吃了一半，心想另外一半第二天可以做炒饭。怎么知道第二天炒饭，加了所有配调竟然又变成两碗饭，好神奇喔。。害我几乎每天都吃太饱。当然我这个炒饭也一点都不好吃，除了有腊肠的味道，一点都感觉不到那是一碗炒饭（火候不够，我几乎都在用小火来炒）
不要笑我，我已经很努力在学了。。

Before the year ends tonight

Before the year ends tonight, I want to remember all these that happened in 2008, be it good, be it bad, I learnt and I grew, now I wrap it all in this year’s memory box and look forward to the New Year to come.

January
Don’t remember a single thing as the whole month was fully dedicated to work, busy doing last minute preparation for the Barcelona event, the biggest and toughest event of the year which I scared most (scared because we have to deal with all the military style management in this top level company event).

February
Business trip to Barcelona (again) and visited Amsterdam for 3days 2nights, beautiful city with windmill, cheese factory, at the same time dangerous streets with legalized prostitute and marijuana. It was nominated the third friendliest city in Europe.

Holiday trip to Bintulu with Air Ais free tickets, yup we walked something like 20-30 km to see the Niah Cave, which is either cordoned off to protect the artifacts or too dark in the cave to see anything at all. This must be the most regretful event of the year!

I was diagnosed with Depression by the physician at Pantai Hospital, thank God I have recovered (I think hence I am). Reason unidentified for the waking up in the middle of the night and gone hysteria with too much self pity and lonesome tears.

March
It was Tzeh’s birthday, we had a nice dinner with KLCC sunset view at PNB Darby Park, though the western cuisine has now changed into a melayu cuisine, it is still a good spot to enjoy the sunset (I don’t recall anywhere else you could do so)

I started a blog after traumatized by the fact that my best-e-s-t buddy on earth announced her wedding plan, she is probably the only human being on earth to whom I could pour out every single thing in my mind, I love you Renee!

April
Singapore business trip, bought the cheapest Swarovski Levi’s on town, yeah yeah!! Had the nicest chicken rice and 豆浆油条 in Food Republic, Suntec City. Oh yeah， we pretended to be tourist and visited the civilization museum, supreme court, the padang etc, and the verdict is Singapore has nothing worth visiting!

Streamyx landed on my kampong house at last! Coming home become an enjoyable activities unlike before, can you imagine I used to live in a place with no astro, no internet, no mamak stall and no shopping mall. Gosh, I don’t know how I survived.

May
“Therefore if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation, the old has gone, the new has come!” I attended the six-week New Life course in SBKL, with much to learn and much to share. I started to practice daily devotion with 7days homework a week to do and submit.

TM Metro E Forum, yes I was the emcee (again). I don’t know why I am such a timid person yet I enjoyed being the master of ceremony for formal and exclusive event like this. No pay no perks, just for the sake of helping other department, saved company lots of money no doubt.

19 May 2008 is a day worth remembering for I was lying on my bed and I felt the bed was shaking for a second or two, I didn’t know what’s going on until the next day I read from paper “Tremors felt in the Klang Valley and Malacca when an earthquake measuring 6.1 on the Richter scale occurred at 10.26pm in Sumatra, 336km SW of Klang.” Sigh, some more I mistaken earthquake for some evil spirit in my room and couldn’t sleep the whole night, bodoh betul.

June
Yearly Singapore business trip, the third year and I am still stick to my job, my boss teased to promote me to be the CEO (chief exhibition officer), with the high turn over rate in the company, I am now the almost the most senior in everything I do already.

My Birthday, Tzeh brought me to a nice restaurant in Bangsar Village II after much research and findings (which he rarely does), it was a Swarovski necklace for my birthday present. El Cerdo in Changkat Bukit Bintang was another great place to celebrate birthday as I get to break a plate according to their custom to bring me good luck, lol.

July
Renee’s wedding, it was comfy and cozy for the dinner was held in a small restaurant called Bayu Timur, Taman Megah, I like it because the couple gets to walk around and chat with everybody with the small group of guests. At the same time met up with Mandy and family doing our own yum cha session at one corner, hehe.

I bluffed my way to Tokyo, just to handle less than 10 customers in total (I had no choice, I want to go no matter what), visited almost every part of the city and went to Hakone for hot spring in the hot hot summer. But I love Tokyo; it is a highly efficient and convenient city with strange culture.
-The transportation system is punctual; 15:39 means 15:39 on the dot
- Talking on the phone in public places like train and restaurant is considered rude
- The use of handkerchief and paper fan is still very common and practical
- I waited one hour for my turn to have breakfast in the hotel because no joining of table is allowed
- I experienced earthquake thinking it is nice to sleep on the rocking bed until my colleague called and shouted earthquake

August
Flew to Beijing from Tokyo because the bosses insists we can only work when we sit down together face to face, squad in Beijing for the whole 30 days (luckily I only have 30 days validity due to the stringent rules by the Chinese government). Had very bad fight with my boss and caused a chaos in the committee, he had to “zham cha” to me after the intercession by the bigger boss.

We participated quite a bit the in First ever Olympic in China, we watched the opening ceremony a few hundreds meters away from the stadium, we went into the four major stadiums to watch the athletes, swimming, fencing and gymnastics respectively, what else could I ask for from Olympics? Many other first time experiences already written in the previous entries.

September
This is a month full of medical appointments; first I did a body check and found out that I have high cholesterol, to my greatest surprise, but now reduced to normal range already. Then I had the first gynae visit to check the unusual pap smear result, it was just common infection. And I also had the first teeth crowning, for the rotten filling has dropped out again, now it’s just like brand new.

Can you believe it? I went for the first ever Singapore F1 Night Race and Ferrari team lost pathetically due to some stupid mistakes and accidents. It was a night filled with excitements especially for we managed to go into the race track at the end and saw the race car in real close distant, we even wave the Ferrari flag in front of the pit stop. Thanks to the H customers whom I received during the period.

October
Finally I decided to do Laser Treatment for my eyes at Optimax, Sunway, I off lens and be the ugly Betty for two weeks, but now I bid glasses goodbye for good for ever. I missed Daphne’s wedding at some far away country side but I am very happy for her and her fairy tale love story. Also due to the body check up results, I started my Hepatitis B jab this month as the immunity no longer active in my body.

12 October 2008, I was born again into the family of God with the water baptism in Bukit Damansara. I never had a birthday like this before, with warmth greetings and congratulatory message from the loved ones, I was on cloud nine for so many days. And I thank my family members for being so supportive all this while.

I attended the young adult Awakening Camp and made many discoveries on my baby Christian walk, it was a wonderful weekend with indulgences of God’s word with the fellow cell members in particular, church member in general. I hold worms in my hands for the first time (actually no feeling at all, and I’m glad I was forced to do so in the games session).

I had my first ever Diamond Ring from the so called stick clearance sales from Wah Chan, 1 Utama (later only realized all rings can get up to 70% wherever you go). Anyway, it was not for proposal, it was “just for fun” according to the Tzeh’s dictionary. It’s ok, I like my Christmas present, though I brought him there, I chose and he only paid.


November
This was my third visit to Macao, and this time only I really spend time to explore the food galore. Must try is the authentic Portuguese food and some local delicacies not available in other parts of China or Malaysia.

Worst incident in the year, I had a bad hair do! I do not know why and when and how and who and what but my hair looks ugly now, never had such negative comments from the friends before (sorry I took it personally, keke). Also on this basis, I decided to forgo the most looking forward company dinner this time. Had the worst buffet dinner on KL Tower, limited selection, old-style set up, lousy service, expensive charges, only for the bird eye’s view of the city.

The return of the once upon a time hopeless romantic Tzeh, we bid each other goodbye and I saw him walking to get his car. The moment I reach home, he called and asked me to open the door for him, because I seemed sad when he left and he decided to follow me home to give me a surprise. Wow, this is really like as seen on TV, I was deeply touched.

December
Cervarex, the new innovation prevent Cervical cancer has been taken this month, another two more to go to complete the course in June next year. Brought my parents to watch the movie “Ip Man” in the cinema for the first time in my life (and first time in their life also).

Spent my first Christmas at Malacca with Tzeh’s family, it was just amazing to see the whole family get together to sing charols, exchange presents and hang out at night. I did my first knitting of a muffle ( and I am now termed the most stupid learner on earth) to Tzeh, a family tree with tiny little photos of each family members to my parents, brothers and sister ( my mom praise me “pandai” for doing so). It was really a blessing to be able to give.